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In 2017, i had a so called boil on my left breast. it was hard when i touched it. I told my husband and he insisted to take me to pantai hospital but i refused. I was scared. i just accepted my fate. Then i drew a family line something about the cancer cases from my mother's side. First, my grandma's sister( my mother's aunty), then my mother's sister and .....was it me? My mother's daughter. i was scared, really scared. i kept thinking of death and i lost my appetite. My mother was staying with me during that painful time. When we watched tv together, there's no more chatting. i was like in my own world. Then the following day, it was red around the so called boil. It's getting worse. I showed it to my husband and he begged to take me to hospital. i looked at him and felt pity. So, i agreed but i must tell my mother first because i had to take her back to her house before going to hospital. That night, i went to see my mother and kept quiet. She looked at m...

Hello good morning. i just finished my Cinderella's chores in the kitchen. Every time i swept the floor, cooked or washed the dishes, i would tell my husband, ' "Excuse me, Cinderella dg54 is on duty". Sometimes, my husband would smile and sometimes he just ignored what i said. Yalah, the only Cinderella who worked less but ate a lot. i think i put on weight staying in Kelantan. I know my husband pities me because any school holidays , we always stay in Kelantan but so far i have no problem. I did mark my students' books here and almost every night , i give exercise on the English class telegram. Check, mark their work and explain for their wrong answers. About performing umroh, i don't have the heart to pray for it. We will take more than one week for umroh , not included the preparation before leaving and the one week rest after we reach home.My husband cannot take care of his mother during that time. So , that's it. But watching how the three brothers t...

i don't know why i fart a lot. i will know the type of gas that expelled from my...tut. if my husband smiled or laughed, it means that fart is the funny type. The sound of it ..long, loud and sometimes like a tyre punctures or a balloon bursts. That funny fart is ok but the soundless one, that's scary because my husband would jump like seeing a ghost. And i would show my innocent face and asked him " Why are you like this? You had no problems whenever i farted before." Then my husband would reply " Yes our eàrly marriage, i rarely heard of it but now pot here , pot there haiiiii ", then i continued ," luckily you love me so much". Then he became speechless. And when there were people around, my dearest husband would take the blame if i farted. I would tell my husband not to fart again or go to the toilet if he wants to fart. A good actress , right? Later , i would tell my husband that i am a lady so it's like a big sin if people hear my fart bu...

i have a very special friend. She accompanied me to kelantan because my fiance's( now my husband) sister was going to get married. It was in 1995. I remembered that we were very late . I stayed in Cheras at that time and she called her boyfriend to take us to Puduraya bus station. We just reached on time. My fiance looked relieved when he saw me and i introduced my "chaperone", Mashitah to him. Mashitah wanted to sit beside me in the bus but she gave her seat to my fiance. She understood my fiance's expression very well hahaha. When we reached kelantan , Shitah and I stayed at his grandmother's house which was in front of his mother's house. Now, that house has become a songkok/ baju melayu factory. I slept with shitah in one room and my fiance slept outside of the room. That was the time he knew i wore contact lenses when he saw me wearing spectacles early morning. The next day, Cik, my fiance's grandmother, asked me to cook and she gave me some beef. i ...

Have you ever sent a wrong sticker or emoticon? i did that, not once but a few times. It was very embarrassing. I wanted to send a flower sticker but i pressed the wrong one so, i ended sending my old friend a grave stone sticker on a WhatsApp group. Can you imagine that? i did delete it but i was afraid she saw what i sent earlier so i sent her a personal apology. The second one, my friend announced a very good news on the school telegram that her basketball team won a first place in a district competition. i was driving my car at that time and stopped at the traffic light. I read her message and was so happy for her but when i wanted to send a thumb up sticker, it was already a green light so i continued driving. Later, when i reached home, i realised i sent a thumb down sticker right after the good news message. It was horrible, so straightaway i apologised , congratulated her team then deleted the sticker. And the next day, i gave a Cadbury almond chocolate to her. She laughed beca...

Hello! Good evening. It's so difficult to update my blog here. When i was stucked in the Jerteh mosque because of the flood last Monday, i slept with my husband and my son. It was already midnight. My husband took us to the guys' prayer area. I saw a lady sleeping with her children and the rest were all guys. My husband brought along our blankets. Everybody was sleeping except us. Then my son fell asleep. My husband told me that he couldn't sleep because he had already slept before we left Petron. We heard loud snores with different sounds . Some sound like pendekar bujang lapok's snores. I laughed. After a few minutes, i heard cute snores near me. it's from my dearest husband. I looked at him. I wanted to touch his forehead but better not. He looked exhausted. I listened to all the snores and smiled. it's like living in the snore world hahaha

Have you ever thought of who's going to take care of you when you're old? it doesn't mean if you have many children, all of them will do that and if they do, consider that you are very lucky. And it doesn't mean if you have only sons, they will leave you alone. Some people said it's better to have daughters than sons but is it true? Like my mother in law, she has four sons and one daughter. All of her sons take a good care of her and there's something good when she has many sons. They can lift her when she cannot get up or walk because they are men. And these strong guys not only can do the tough things but they can also change their mother's diapers, bathe her, put talcum powder on her face , massage her legs and put on socks for her because these guys are her sons. They don't want to disturb their sister because she has also a husband to take care of. Even their wife is also lucky because whatever related to their mother, the husbands will do it. The h...

Hello! it's still raining in Kelantan. When there was flood in Bandar Permaisuri on December 18, I was there. Luckily,we were stucked in Bandar Permasuri Petron. We stayed there for two days and one night. Yup, sound like staying in a hotel. As i mentioned earlier, Petron petrol station is the best and I really mean it. The Petron manager or may be the owner , i was not sure, gave us food like fried chicken with rice + vegetables, fried kue teow, breads and cakes. She also gave us free mineral water. There were around 30 cars stucked in Petron but she didn't mind. She kept saying we're her guests and thinking what was the next menu to give us. The toilets are very clean because she hires two cleaners. And talking about the cleaner. Before we left, my husband wanted to donate some money to the cleaner as he saw her mopping the floor. After a while my husband came back. I asked whether he had given the money to the diligent cleaner. He said no because she didn't want to a...

Sometimes, we don't have to be rich to do good deeds. If we can make other people happy that's good. Make them laugh or smile, it can relieve their stress. Switch off the fan and the light when there's nobody there. Or may be clean the whiteboard after using it. If the students forget to do it, the teacher has to do it. No more saying, " it's not my duty today". Or "I am a teacher, student must clean the whiteboard , not me" . And please don't throw rubbish anywhere you like. After using the toilet, you just throw the tissue on the floor or inside the bowl. I really pity the cleaner. She has already cleaned the toilet so, we suppose try to maintain the cleanliness. We throw rubbish on the floor because we know the cleaner will clean it up. " It's not right if we keep saying that the cleaner's salary is to make everything look clean." And mothers please throw the diaper into the garbage bin, not leave it at the sink. About the ch...

As you all know, i attended my nephew's wedding yesterday. The host had prepared a few dining tables for the guests, it means for my big family. My sister and i saw our bang ngah sat at one table, so we went there and sat with him. Then came my other brothers, my husband, my brother in law, my nieces , my son, bla bla and bla. When they wanted to sit with us came a lady. She told us that the table was for the bride and the groom. I looked at my sister, she looked at me. I looked at my husband then lastly, i looked at the one day king's foods ( makanan raja sehari) on the table. Mamma mia, sedapnya, yummy... very tempting. My sister didn't move, so i made a drastic decision by not leaving that table. We didn't want to follow our husband. So my husband, my brother in law and my son went to another table without us. Then my mother and my nieces together with their husband sat with us.The bride and the groom ( my nephew) sat in front of me. My sister and i looked at the fo...

I attended a wedding today. It's my nephew's wedding. He married to a single mother, older than him. A woman with grown up kids. i told him that as long as he and his wife love each other, take care of each other, complete each other ..... that's enough for me. People said love is blind but love is not blind . We just didn't want to open our mind to accept it. When i looked at them, holding hands and smiling, i am very sure they have chosen the right partner to share everything whether it is sad or bad. As their aunty or Mak Su, I just pray for their happiness. Love both of you, muahh

Life is short. We don't know when we are going to die. if we have a long life, it won't be the same like when we are young. We won't have the same energy and the same mind. We can't remember that much when we are getting old. Now , you are 40 or 50 something, make fully use of it. Spend time with your family and friends. Enjoy your life but at the same time be good to everybody. May Allah bless all of us. Aamiin.

When my only child was having a high fever and the specialist told me that he was seriously ill, I became weak. My son was one and a half years old that time. It was only one week after Eidil Fitri. It was in 2005. Yes, i still remember it. People were still in hari raya mood. We were in Seremban General Hospital. After the specialist explained everything about my boy, i just kept quiet. i was speechless. i didn't know what to say and what to ask. After the specialist and the doctors team left, i walked slowly to the musolla (surau) . I didn't know why i was going to that place. But when i opened the door, i saw my mother. Straight away i went to her, hugged her legs and cried. i just cried and cried. Then i heard someone asked my mother. She had a soft voice . She asked my mother why i was crying. My mother told her that my son was seriously ill. Then my mother asked her why she was there. Calmly she told my mom that she was a cancer patient. I was shocked and looked at the ...

When you help somebody or do any good deeds without expecting anything in return that's what we call sincerity. Yup, that sounds noble but can we do it? Sometimes, we had done a good deed to that person but he or she just ignored us like we never met or never exist. It happened to me many times and at first , i was angry and i did cry but after learning the word " sincerity " i tried to avoid the feeling. It's not easy especially if we had done a lot. Don't get angry . Just try to accept it with open heart. May be the good deeds that we did, we don't get any compliments or thanks or may be the person that we helped, don't remember us anymore or forget our name .....just accept it. I always bear in mind, as long as God knows what i do and be pleased with what i did, that's enough for me. God's reward is indescribable. Percayalahhhhh....trust me!

It was frustrating to watch the player couldn't kick the ball into the goal during the penalty kick. i asked my husband was it because of pressure and he said yes. Yup, i couldn't blame them. I stood up and lifted my long skirt. I took three steps back and ran. I pretended like kicking a ball and shouted goalllllll. I looked at my husband and asked him whether i could join the team. He said, "Yes, of course. .You can join Sepahtu (comedians).

On the way to Malacca today, i fell asleep. Actually, i was still feeling tired after i had the English Camp yesterday. But when my husband wanted to take us out, i just said YES, YES and YES. Really need a break. When i was sleeping, suddenly i felt someone nudging me. It was my husband. He was smiling while driving and told me to wake up. I asked him why. Well, he said as usual i slept with my mouth opened. Alamak, How big is it? Then he replied, " your standard" . i didn't know that he has already set a standard for how big my mouth will open when i am sleeping. I did a demo , "Is it this big? "I opened my mouth widely. He just smiled and said nothing. No commentlah tu

i had a serious conversation, i mean a very serious conversation with my husband after buying nasi lemak for our breakfast this morning.  Me: I don't know why i love you more and more. When I look at you, it's like i am falling in love with you again and again. Are you using minyak pengasih (love potion)?  Hubby : I am using minyak Attar ( attar oil).

Look small to you but it is big to me. As a teacher, i prefer to have students who have very good attitude. May be, they are not smart but very helpful. If they are smart, kind and helpful...wow that's a perfect package. Like today, i was having an English Camp briefing with my Form 1, form 2 and form 3 students and i didn't realise other teachers were busy preparing themselves for a photo session. it's for the school magazine. I didn't hear the announcement. There was another teacher at the hall, a male teacher. He wanted to do SEGAK for his form 5 students. Both of us were busy doing our work. Then , my sweet 5 psv2 girl came running to me and said "teacher, everybody is waiting for you......" . I saw my male colleague was leaving the hall. That girl helped me to arrange all the lists and she asked me to leave. She would put all my things on my table in the KB room. See, a good- hearted girl. That girl, i always scolded her when she repeated her mistakes be...

Last night, my son did his shahadah, from page 16 to 21. It's the first juzuk of Al Quran. i told my husband not to make noise. i did my paper marking in the kitchen while my husband was watching his football world cup . A mute football match. I asked him to turn off the volume. Pity him. My husband looked bored and sleepy whereas i was excited and proud because i can't do what my son did. Even memorising only a few pages, i am still proud of him. I listened to my boy's hafazan and smiled. Then i remembered something important and went to my husband . I didn't want to disturb my son. So, i told my husband the story using my secret weapon - my soft, sexy voice complete with face expression to make it more interesting. I ended my story and looked at him, wanted to know his response. He said, " Awak cakap apa Yang, tak dengar". He couldn't hear what i said. Haiiiii really wasting my voice. What to do, i still love him with all my heart. At least, he tried to...

From Kelantan to my place, it will take around 8 hours. And of course we need to go to the toilet a few times. I always went to the mosque's toilet although my husband would stop at any petrol station to go to the toilet there. But not me, i preferred to bear it until we reached the mosque. There was no Pantai Timur Highway (LPT) at that time, so there was no RNR. Now, every thing has changed. There is RNR and i have my favourite petrol station that is PETRON. The toilets are very clean and complete with the hand wash liquid. Any PETRON station , the toilets are clean. So my problem is solved. On the way to Kajang to visit my son , my husband and i had lunch at Genting Sempah. At first i didn't want to go to the toilet because there're so many people and i was afraid the toilets were dirty . You know, tissue papers on the bowl,....But to my surprise, the toilets are very clean. Out of my expectation. I smiled at the cleaner when i saw her wiping the mirrors. She did a great...

We are going to leave Kelantan tomorrow. It's just a short visit . The most important thing is to meet our dearest Ma. Last time, she had fever because of missing my husband. That's why we are worried about her. And this Monday, we still have to go to school. It's tiring but as long as everybody is happy, it's fine with me. One night and one day staying here, lots of food i have tasted. Nasi kerabu, Mee kuah, the beef soup, colek perut, cek mek cake and may be tomorrow morning, i am going to have nasi dagang for my breakfast.......i love all the food. I seldom cook here because it's such a waste not to taste those food and my husband didn't mind at all because he's so grateful to have me anywhere he goes. Yalah, who else wants to tell jokes or stories while he is driving. I am scared that he will fall asleep without me. He knows i am tired, even tomorrow night, i have to do a relief timetable for the teachers who are absent on Monday. That's why he nev...

When you receive a gift from anybody, have you ever thought how that person bought that thing? You just said thank you. Don't worry , i also did that. But when i bought something for someone, for example a wedding present, there're a few obstacles i have to go through. Firstly, i have to persuade my husband to take me to the mall. My husband has to sacrifice his free time just to fulfill my request. Next, i spend quite a long time to choose the best present, may be an electric kettle, then i have to wait for the staff to test it. If it is broken, i have to wait for the staff to find a replacement. if let say there's no replacement, i have to find another thing. haiiii. After buying the thing, i have to line up at the cashier counter. If there are many customers, it will be a long queue. Lastly, after paying, i have to go to the customer service counter to wrap the present.  See, with all the things that i have to do just to buy a present , i think all of us, including myse...

Hello. Let's talk about friendship. Do we need friends in our lives? Is it enough if we just have our family? No friends, only family. When i was in secondary school, i had a gang. It was called Red Ribbon. Actually, the name was Red Ribbon Pirates Gangster, sound scary right? But most of us forget that name, so we stick to Red Ribbon. We studied in a boarding school in Melaka. That's how we became so close. No secret among us. Any problems, we would help each other. The best part is until now, we are still good friends but i think it's more than that. We are like sisters now. One of us is a doctor, so any health problems we just ask her on the WhatsApp group or text her personally. i typed a lot about them on my old blog. How we solved our problems together, be naughty together hahaha and never thought of being selfish. If one of us was being hurt, all of us would feel the pain. Our teenage life was so colourful. Now, we have our own family and one of us has already two d...

There was a boy in my class. His name is...... One day, he asked me , " Teacher, are you married? " I looked at him and said, " of course, i am married. i am 52 years old'. Then he told his friends in tamil..........i didn't understand what he said but i understood when he mentioned the word "old". yalah,if 25 is young, 52 is no doubt, old. Hayya, hayya....

Hello! After coming back from school, my husband called me. He told me that his parcel would be delivered today and may be it was already at our porch. He asked me to take it before his enemy, mr 🐕 bit it away. I forgot to tell you, mr 🐕 bit my husband's tyre brush and his wiping cloth and it put them at our laundry yesterday. My husband didn't want to use them anymore and he looked a bit sad. I told my husband that 🐕 liked playing with his things. So when my husband asked me to check his parcel at the porch, i was worried but then i realised my husband hasn't touched it yet, so no smell from my husband. If he's lucky, it might still be there. When i opened the door, mr 🐕 was already there relaxing next to my husband's car and i saw the parcel near my car. I looked at mr 🐕 and it looked at me. We looked at each other. i syu syu mr 🐕 and it wanted to leave but it was raining at that time so mr 🐕 came back. i didn't have the heart to force mr 🐕 to leave ...

I married my husband in 1996. At first i didn't feel comfortable. Of course new family, new surrounding and new culture. i wore faded jeans and t-shirt at that time. To me, my husband must accept me as who i was. Only in December 2013, after returning from umroh , i stopped wearing jeans and not only jeans, i stopped wearing long pants. Until now, i don't feel to wear them anymore. No forcing from my husband or my in laws, none. Early marriage, i was not satisfied with a few things in Kelantan but whenever i told my husband about it , he didn't like to hear. Then i noticed that my husband adores his family, especially his mother. Whenever i treated his family well, my husband would smile and bought something that i loved. His happiness actually comes from his family. Then i promise to myself no more comments about his family. His family is my family, his parents are my parents. When his family had problem, i also tried to help. I am the youngest in my family whereas my husb...

i miss my boy, i really miss him . My son asked me at his hostel whether i am happy without him at home. i told my boy only God knows how much i missed him and worried about him , prayed for him , day and night when he's not around. But i have to be strong because i know this is the best for him.My son knows that i love him and going to miss him so he left his t-shirt that he had already worn. Whenever i miss him, i can kiss his t-shirt. i can smell his perfume and it heals my pain of missing him. May Allah protect my son and always guide him to the right path. Aamiin.

Hi, let's talk about animals today. This morning, my husband sprayed some water to a dog. Actually, it was a homeless dog but my neighbour always put some food outside her house to feed her cats and not only the cats ate the food, that dog too and sometimes they ate together. Can you believe it? what happens now the dog feels like at home. It feels being loved by someone. So, it can be seen around our area. Sometimes at our neighbour's house, sometimes at the empty house and.... sometimes at our house. Whenever my husband saw the dog, he would make noise to make the dog go somewhere else. This morning, the dog was biting whoever's old sandal and again my husband shu shu the dog but this time, he sprayed some water to the dog and it left without the sandal. My husband took the old sandal and threw it into the dustbin. He came inside and told me about the dog. i was worried about my two pairs of Skechers shoes that i put in front of the door and luckily, they were still there...

Hi! i am not well. Problem with my hands, left toes and my right heel. I am tired because i use lots of energy to walk.....My today's advice, please hold your partner's hand tightly while walking because one day when your hand is weak, you can only hold your hand's partner..... it's like touching. You cannot swing the two hands happily like small kids because your hand is weak. It's like touching without feeling the warmth and it's sad, extremely sad. Please hold your partner's hand tightly while walking , sometimes you can rub his hand and laughed when he's ticklish. Enjoy the sweet moment because i do miss it. Take care of each other ok. Luckily, my husband and i still share our dirty jokes and laugh a lot although i feel like an old woman walking beside him. haiiiiii never mind, as long as we are happy and still, i love you, you love me chewahh.

i don't know what's wrong with me now, but i like to add the green chili padi in my fried rice or when i eat it with vadei....fuh the best. But only the green ones. i still cannot tolerate with the red chili.... it's very hot. The green chili is small, so i just break it with my hand into three pieces , i don't have to use a knife to cut it . Aiyo eating chilies man, only the hero can do it. If i eat it with vadei, just eat the whole of it, yes. No need cutting it. My husband was impressed when he saw me eating the chili just like that. Very, very impressive and i was so proud of it. But later when i went to the toilet because of eating chilies, he just laughed. Hero became Zero.

Every month, i contribute some money to my friend. She is a single mother, blind and has two kids who are still studying. One night i told my friend that i am going to retire next year and may be i cannot contribute that amount to her and she said that it's ok because she understood my situation. Then the next morning after praying tahajjud, i felt something wrong. i shouldn't say that to her. may be my life will not be as good as before but i should give her the same amount. So i texted her and told her that i changed my mind. Her daughter read the message for her and she thanked me for that.That morning, i was ready to go to school. i tried to reverse my car but there was a white cat at the gate, so i kept driving my car back and forth. Then a car which was driven so fast passed my house and i never saw it. Luckily, the cat was there before. Yup, after the formula one car gone, the cat was also nowhere. It's a mystery. May be my intention to help my friend saved my life...

i really miss Mecca and Medina. i miss walking along the road, watch people selling things like prayer mat, shawls, tasbih and many more. i miss the thick mango juice , i miss kebab, i miss the smell, i miss the busy roads, i miss the honking, i miss the food, i miss the sellers calling me hajjah, i miss their smile, i miss every thing about mecca. i miss to kiss the kaabah and be in the hijr ismail. Medina, it's different. There's only one place that i miss, that is to be in Rawdah, near Rosulullah. it's so calm there, the feeling is different . Medina people are friendly and the ladies speak softly and gently. I miss all of that.

i must be very careful when i speak to my mom because sometimes what i said, i would get it. Early this year, my mom asked me to buy a bottle of pati gamat gesb when i was in kelantan. it's very good for the ones who have gastric. i bought two bottles, one for me and another one for her. When i gave her the gamat bottle , she told me that she wanted to have two bottles. I told her that i must keep one bottle because i was afraid that i would have gastric. i had gastric before, so it's for a backup. What happened was i really had gastric after that. For two months, i bought 6 or 8 bottles because i ate two table spoons of pati gamat, 4 times a day. Horrible. I told my mom and she felt sorry for me. Luckily, after two months i was ok until now. Thank God!

A very interesting info that i got from ustaz Shamsuri. The facts about duniawi. 40 years old - the educated persons and uneducated ones, their salary is same or may be the less educated ones have higher salary than the educated ones. 50 years old - there's no difference between beauty and ugliness. You still have your wrinkles , except if you use botox or do plastic surgery. 60 years old - the status is same. may be you were a big officer before but after you retire, your status is same with your clerk. They won't call you boss or Tuan anymore. 70 years old - big house or small house is same. You cannot walk too much. You prefer to stay at one place. 80 years old - have money or no money is same. You cannot travel oversea, you cannot eat luxurious food like lobster because of your health problem. 90 years old - you lie down or you get up, there won't be any difference because you don't know what to do. After that when we die, all of us will be buried in a grave. Th...

Lots of things to do. I am really tired. I am having problem with my right heel.After sitting for a long time, it would be so painful when i stepped my right foot on the floor. i am weàring sandals now in the house. I feel less pain wearing them. In 2018, i had the same problem but after performing hajj, i felt no pain until i returned from kelantan during the last Maulidur Rosul break. My legs were hurt at first, then after a few days, my right heel gave me problem. i feel pain but i feel shy to ask Allah to help me because i always ask Allah to help my son in his study and in his life . Too many requests but i contribute a bit to Allah and that's why i feel shy to ask more. i had strong legs before and i took part in 100 metres event when i studied in international islamic University. But i lost hehehe. How to win if other international opponents have longer legs than mine. it's like i ran one step, they had already run five steps ahead. haiiiii....

My husband took me out this evening. We went to burp cafe to have our favourite chicken grilled. But while waiting for our food to be served, i had stomachache. At first, i tried to control it but it shouted to be released. Really spoiled my mood. Aiyo finished my investment in the toilet , my husband had almost finished his meal,so i ate alone. I cannot eat a lot, i take after my late father. Last time, on the way back from kelantan, i had to go to the bushes with two big bottles of mineral water. Haii.,..at least i had the place to invest. Luckily, there was no wild boar. There was once ,ops twice . First, i invested it in my car . There was no toilet and bushes, so the best place, my honda crv . i didn't know how my husband and my son could bear with the smell. then,my husband's car. His cute suzuki swift. He was not angry at all but i made sure his car was shining like a diamond after i cleaned it up. My today's advice is if you want to get married , marry someone...

Hello! I read articles about the late Andy Gibb, the youngest brother of the Bee Gees. He was good looking, very talented and i love his voice. I also love his famous brothers' songs. Andy Gibb died when he was only 30 years old. After reading the articles, i could imagine a young guy who worked so hard to be like his brothers . He loved his brothers, he loved Bee Gees and he was so proud, singing with his brothers on the stage. May be , he felt inferior because people liked to compare him and his brothers' success and that feeling was not good to him. I faced this problem a few years ago. I am a smart teacher. At school, students ask my advice and they respect me. But a problem came when my son studied in my school. And he is not as smart as his mother. People started comparing both of us. My son always tried to avoid me at school. He didn't want to be in the sports house, uniform body and club where i was the advisor. At first, i didn't notice that but i felt weir...

A good tip for all the newly-weds, if you really love your partner i mean your spouse , please do not tell bad things about him or her. i know you want to share your problem especially with your parents or your siblings but they will get angry with your spouse. Your family's pure intention is to defend or protect you from your 'evil' spouse because they love you more than your spouse. And at the end, you will feel hurt too when they don't treat your spouse well after hearing bad things from you. BUT if your spouse abused you, do not hesitate to get help. Don't let your spouse hurt you physically or mentally. If your husband hurt you, don't keep it to yourself. i love him , so it is ok he slapped me and kicked my tummy. Hello that is what i call STUPID. Think of your life first. He slapped you today, make sure it is the first and the last from him. If he keeps doing it, GET HELP. Same situation if the wife abused the husband. Don't feel shy to get help. May ...

i went to Malacca Bayview Hotel yesterday for a lunch buffet with my husband, mom, son, my brother, my sister and my brother in law. My sister brought along her daughter, hawa. Actually, i gave them a treat . It's the closing of maulidur Rosul month, that is Rabiul Awwal. Really enjoyed myself. We had a long chat. Took a break for zuhur prayer, then continued eating, chatting, eating , chatting hahaha. The best! i really respect my brother in law. He always helped me when i was a university student until i got married. He has no sister but has six brothers. i seldom visit them because they are also busy with their children, so yesterday, i was so thankful for them coming to join us. Really appreciate it. I should always meet them next time. Or may be another buffet would be great. No need to cook, no need to wash the dishes, no need to wipe the table, no need to sweep the floor. Just enjoy the food while chatting and laughing. Gendang gendut tali kecapi, kenyang perut senang hati ...

When i performed hajj with my husband and son in 2018, i was not worried because i knew i was Allah's guest, so i didn't think i would face any trouble there. We just took Muassasah Tabung Haji. We didn't take the private one because it's expensive and my husband told me that if we had extra money, we could do umrah in 2019. What happened was three of us were always together. In the plane, i sat beside my husband and my son sat behind my seat. In the Mecca hotel, we stayed on the same floor and our rooms were separated by only a room.  The best one is Medina. Our hotel is very near to Nabawi Mosque. Alhamdulillah. We were so lucky.  My husband shared a room with our son, only two of them. There was a bathroom inside their room ( and there was another room on that floor where the bathroom was outside ). So, i gave a flying kiss to all my roommates, took my luggage and the pillow, went to my husband's room and stayed with them. It's very easy to go anywhere  and v...

Sayang or cinta. in english, sayang means love, cinta is also love. What is the difference between sayang and cinta? Someone told me that if you 'sayang' , you don't expect that person to return your kindness. You just want to give something or help because of sayang. For example, a husband who loves or sayang his wife dearly. He gave a bracelet to the wife because he wanted his wife to be happy. He didn't ask his wife to give him something that can make him happy. He gave because of sayang. But if cinta, when you give cinta to somebody, you expect that person to cinta you back. That's why , we always say, i love you. Do you love me? Do you love me as much as i do? We expect the same . When we ask the kids, why do you help your mother at home? We sayang our mother that's why we do it. They help because of sayang. They don't want their mother to feel tired doing the chores alone. i did ask my husband, do you sayang or cinta me? Luckily, he answered, I sayang...

Abah passed away in February, 2014 because of stomach ulcer. On Thursday night, he vomitted coffee blood then on Sunday morning a few minutes before subuh adzhan, he left all of us. I reached hospital and ran to his bed. Abah was lying there, i cried but i smelled something fragrance near his head. I looked at that side, then after a few seconds, the fragrance smell gone. Then at home, after reading suroh Yaasin, there was a drop of tear at his left eye, i took and kissed it. Then at the graveyard, again i smelled fragrance, i kept quiet . then i heard kak lang said that she smelled something fragrance and so did my husband. My father passed away on sunday morning, a day before that, on Saturday morning, i smelled fragrance in my room. My late abah liked to help people, for example after getting his car license , he took my mother's cousin for her job interview and walla.. she got that job, even my neighbour who's going to give birth. Her husband was not around , so abah to...

in 2020, during the mco, i had sinus . it was horrible . I felt better if i sneezed. At that time, people were scared of sneezing. It's a symptom of Covid 19. My dearest husband ordered a bottle of habbatus Sauda oil. Every morning, i drank a tablespoon of it. it's a bit spicy but i felt relieved. i had no more problem in breathing and no more nose blockage. Now, i don't drink it every day because i will have mouth ulcer (it makes me feel hot) . But sometimes when i have a nose blockage, i just take a tablespoon of it and use my tongue to rub it on my palate. After a few minutes, my nose will be ok. All depend on your body whether it can accept this oil or not. It suits me well and not everybody's willing to take it, including my son. Whatever, we must tawakkal to Allah and visit the doctor or specialist first. My nose was x-rayed and that's how i know i had sinus.

A lady with a slim tummy, she can walk 'mendada' ( just like a rooster walks), sexy right, but a lady with a pot belly ( like me ) walks, that is called 'memperut". That's hurt. i should control eating. must eat less rice and do more exercise. But i love eating rice, even my breakfast is also rice. it gives me extra energy to teach my active students. It means at night, i try not to eat rice. Bread will be ok ... but this evening instead of buying bread , i bought marry brown chicken porridge. haiiii need to control my appetite. Last night, i managed to eat bread for my dinner but early this morning, i went to the canteen to have my breakfast. i really hope i won't get back my gastric.

Hello everybody! Last week, i asked my students to use the word 'patient' in their sentence. A girl named Chloe straight away said, " Teachers must be patient because they are teachers". i looked at that girl and asked, " Is that what you think of me." And with confidence, she said "Yes". When she said that, suddenly i felt guilty because that morning i scolded my 3 A students. So, am i a teacher because i lost patience with them? The next day, when i entered 3A, i looked at the students and started teaching. When they were talking, i stared at them and they kept quiet. Wow, that's good. i didn't smile at them , i just taught and taught. Then, we had a quiz. they answered my questions correctly and what else could i do ? So, i made a big announcement. I told them that they could have an early recess today because they behaved well in my class. All of them shouted Yehhhh and the monitor proudly stood up and said "Thank you, teacher...

i just listened to the late ustaz ismail kamus's talk. it's about humans' level in islam. 1. taubat 2. warok. If the food is not confirmed halal, the wàrok people won't eat. 3. zuhud. only the rich can become zuhud. 4. sabr ( patient). Allah always be together with a patient person. Example of Nabi Musa's story. . 5. syukr Do the ones that Allah ask but prevent yourself from doing the wrong ones. 6. tawakkal 7. redha ( the highest level) please read about Nabi Ayub

The best - Students who are not only good at academic but they are also polite with teachers. Whenever they meet any teachers, they will greet the teacher although the teacher doesn't teach them.i am so touched with their attitude and i am so proud , i still have this kind of students in my school. My favourite - Students who are weak at academic but attitude is good. They listen to their teachers and do their work. One more thing, they are very helpful. There was one year, i cried because the form 5 girls came to see me before sitting for their examination. I was in Perak at that time. When they shook my hand, i cried and hugged the girls. They were weak at academic but very skillful. i always asked them to help me especially for decorating a place. It was very impressive because they were like professional interior designers. Until now, i miss those girls. Dot dot dot students - i don't want to give any comments because they don't deserve it. Let them be in their ow...

Yaa hayyu yaa Qoyyum

Laa ilahaillallah

Ya Allah. # Let's do it to prove our love to Allah. Thank you Allah.

Subhanallahil azeemi wa bihamdih # sometimes, when we remember Allah, we can do zikr. This is to show our love to our God. Hopefully, when we remember Allah, Allah will remember us as His slave. We become close to Allah. insya Allah.

i loved watching korean dramas. I know park bo gum, park... alamak forget his full name, sorry and dramas like healer, love in the moonlight , royal agent, fight for your way and many more. Then i watched chinese drama and i was crazy about the drama . Almost every day, i would watch it. i felt relax after that. but i had problem because of watching the Chinese drama. it's so difficult for me to wake up early to perform tahajjud prayer. i would get up at 5 a.m. , sometimes nearly subuh prayer . At first , i didn't notice but then i felt something wrong . After listening to the late Dato' ismail kamus, i made a conclusion that watching the kissing scenes are also types of maksiat or sins. So, i stopped. until now, i don't watch korean or Chinese dramas anymore. Sometimes, i still remember the story , the handsome actors and the gorgeous actresses but i just ignore the feeling or the temptations to watch it. What a sacrifice.....

Tomorrow is my husband's birthday. At first, i wanted to buy him an electric lunch box , so i asked my husband to order it on shoppe but he didn't want to. Then i remember Amelia, the brownies towkey. i texted her whether she can send it to my husband at his school tomorrow morning. And good news, she said ok but she asked me to pay extra C.O.D. i told her no problem as long as i can give something to my husband on his birthday. Long time ago, when we were dating, i did post surprise gifts to him, a monkey soft toy, a box of mangoes. That's what i call 'LOVE'. Last night, i told my husband that i pray to Allah, he can enter a paradise door that is for a good husband and son like him. Aamiin ya Allah. I really hope he will love the chocolate topping brownies and share with his colleagues. we just wait for the result tomorrow....good night.

How to cook cockles soup? So easy. First, wash the cockles then put the cockles into a pot. Add only one and quarter of water ( use mug) into it. Don't forget the lemon grass, shallots and salt. Then start boiling. when a few cockles opened their shell, straight away you turn off the stove. Walla, your cockles soup are ready to be eaten. My dearest sister kak chik gave me the recipe. Have a try....and good luck.

As a mother , i always want the best for my son. i think all parents are like that. Even as a teacher, i always want the best for my students. When they failed in the exam, after studying hard, i would feel bad. i will work harder to make sure they pass in the next exam. If the students are really lazy and don't want to improve themselves, that type of students, i don't think i can help. So does my son. Before he joins tahfiz, i didn't know how to help him. He's not doing well in academics, especially maths. when i heard his hafazan on al Kahfi, i was surprised. oh then i knew , he's good at memorising al Quran. I am so grateful to God. Thank you Allah. My son always feels inferior but i always told him that i could never beat him when it comes to Quran memorising. I am not good. When someone reads Yaasiin, i could follow without looking at the text but i couldn't memorise it alone. I need someone to read it then i can follow. Not like my son. He can memor...

Before we left mother in law's house last Thursday.   Aku : Ma, kita nak gerak dah ( we are leaving)   MIL : Bila nak maghi? ( when are you coming back?)   Aku : Insya Allah bulan 10 ( God willing, October)   MIL : Bule lapei ( August).   Aku : Tak boleh kelik bulan 8 sebab sekarang ni dah bulan 9.(we cannot come back in August because now is September).  I have already missed Ma( MIL). May Allah protect her and bless her with good health. Aamiin.

When we buy a house,we will decorate it with furnitures. when we have extra money, we want to renovate our house. That's normal. I also did that. we love our house because we live in it. But please don't love our house too much that we forget our permanent house in the hereafter ( akhirat). Don't ever think that we will live in that house forever. When the time comes, we will leave that house . Our son or our daughter will live there. And if he or she is not here anymore , the house will be belonged to his wife (our daughter in law)or her husband (our son in law). Then our daughter in law or our son in law remarries. After that our daughter in law or son in law dies. Now, the house belongs to his new wife or new husband. At the end , an outsider, someone that we don't know lives in our house. Not us, not our children, not our in laws live there. Ouch that's hurt. Life in this world is just a test.

Almost one year we didn't come to this place. it's situated in Ayer Keroh Melaka. This Sunday, my son will go back to his hostel so tonight, we take him to this special place. We used to order chicken mango but tonight we order steamed fish, tomyam and salted egg crab. My son is worried about his hafazan and i am trying to make him happy. i cannot order bandung soda as i am afraid i will get chest pained. So teh o for me pleaseeeee # i am so happy because the chief waiter and the cashier still remember me.The chief waiter was quite surprised to see me at first and welcomed us wholeheartedly. i really like the restaurant, not only the food is yummy, the service and the staffs are 5 star. Gendang gendut tali kecapi, kenyang perut senang hati.

just returned from my extra class. only three students came. It was raining heavily but that's not a good excuse for being absence. A mother sent me a message informing me that her son was not well. I accepted it but Thanam told me that she was also not well and she attended my class. Sometimes, i don't look at the quantity. Like today, i focused on how to give quality lessons to my excellent students. Although Puah is weak , i consider him as excellent because of his attitude. First, i did writing with them because how to do listening if the thunder is louder than the speaker. Well, all of them have the basic on writing . Very good. So today, i taught them on how to get a good mark. We still had 45 minutes to do listening. It supposed to be a listening test but as i just had three learners so i cancelled the test . We had a listening exercise instead. Asked them to listen ,circle the answer and told me what's their answer..I didn't respond. I played the audio again and...

i heard bad news when i reached home last night after 9 hours travelling from kelantan. my former schoolmate passed away because of heart attack. He was 52 years old. in 2019, i lost my grandmother, my auntie Busu, my uncle Busu and my sister Kak lang. My grandmother died when she was 93 years old. She loved eating although after that she would have stomachache but she kept telling us , don't worry i have my medicine. She loved pizza and satay. Yup she still had her teeth. Only one month before she died , she lost her appetite. Then after a few months, i lost my aunty. After praying asar, suddenly she collapsed and doctor told my mother that her sister had a major stroke. After a few days, she passed away. Her grave is near my grandmother's. Then after three days, my uncle passed away. This is what i called a sudden death. His grave is next to his wife's. After a few months, i lost my dearest sister Kak lang . She died because of cancer. Her grave is near my Busu and my gra...

i don't remember the last movie that i watched in the cinema. In 2018, my husband my son and i wanted to watch Avengers - End game. Is it right, the title? i had checked the time to watch the movie. wow, we could watch it at 11 a.m. it means the movie would end before Zuhur Adzan. What happened was when we were ready to leave our house, then i heard news that the famous ulamak, Dato' Hasan Din passed away. i told my son that we couldn't go to the cinema to show our respect to the well known ulamak. I always watched his programme on tv hijrah " Nasihat Atuk" . Is it right, the title? instead of watching the movie, we went shopping and had lunch outside. i still remember it was one or two months after coming back from performing our pilgrimage ( hajj) . Mày be it was not right to go to the cinema with the title hajj or hajjah. So, until now , we don't go to the cinema although my son begged me to take him to a cinema to watch " Abang Long Fadhil 3" ....

Every day, i fall in love with my husband. The way he speaks, the way he smiles , the way he hugged his mom , lifted her then put her on the mattress gently.....all that melted my heart. Once, i told my husband, i was worried about my mother if i pass away. Now, i am not worried about her because i know my brothers and my sister will love her as much as i do. Once, i told my husband that i was worried about my son if something bad happens to me but now, i am not worried anymore. Our son has grown up and he is independent . Now, i am worried about my husband. The way he treated me, i am afraid that he cannot accept if he loses me one day

Thia world is like a transit to us. How many years we can live. 60? 70? 80? 100 years? This is not a place for us to rest or to relax. Zikri, donation, prayer, do good deeds.....they are all our investment for the hereafter( akhirat). Late Datuk Ismail Kamus did say: There are 4 types:- a) People who gain profit in the world and in the hereafter. b) People who gain profit in the world but loss in the hereafter c) People who are loss in the world but gain profit in the hereafter d) People who are loss in the world and in the hereafter. May God bless all of us. Be good ok. Take care and bye...

Yesterday and today, i cooked chicken porridge for my mother in law. Of course, i googled the recipe first because i couldn't cook ordinary porridge like i used to cook. To make it special, i would boil the chicken wings first to get the stock. i boiled it quite long. I also added shredded chicken and carrots into the porridge. Before my husband served the porridge, i would heat it first by adding the chicken stock into it and put a bit salt. i fried shallots and garlic, then i put it on top of the porridge. Not only that , i also put a bit celery leaf to make the porridge smell good.  A good tip from me, before you serve any food, make sure you taste it first. if you don't like it, other people also feel the same. But if you love the taste, so does everybody. Don't just cook because it's your responsibility to prepare the food. Cook with love and make everybody happy with it. Be good to your mother in law and your husband will appreciate you more than before. Chiya, Ch...

From Aku, with love...'Aku', sounds wild and fierce rather than 'me', like a sweet, shy little girl. ok back to the topic. What should you do when you have an argument with your husband? What should you do? There is a situation when we are unhappy about something. Everybody is trying to prove that he or she is right. it's better if one of you stops and leaves the place. Go to another place and to me the best place to release my unsatisfaction is....tadaa the toilet, where else. I can wash my face or take my bath to cool me down. And at the same time, i can speak to myself. Nobody hears what i am saying. Only the walls, the shower and my lifebuoy body wash. They won't share or viral what I said in the toilet. They are good listeners. Are they? Hahaha. So, say whatever you want to say . You won't hurt anybody's feeling because only you in the toilet. Then after you cool down, come out of the toilet, go to your bedroom and if your husband is there, say H...

Staying here in machang, my husband's hometown, i make friends with homeless animals. there are two cats and quite a number of chickens. Well, my late father in law always fed the cats, so i follow his step. i put a lot of food for the cats outside and it finished after a few minutes. wow, these cats were really hungry. This morning, as usual my son put the food outside for them while i was drinking my tea. then i heard noise outside like fighting. i opened the door and the poor cats were there looking at me , begging for help and over there, i saw the chickens were eating their food greedily. Spontaneously, i did my Watcha just like karate kid ops karate veteran , then all the chickens dispersed fearfully. hahaha. but i felt pity to the chickens. As there was a leftover rice in the rice cooker, like a Tamil movie hero , i ran with the pot and put the rice quite far from the cats' food. Again, within a few seconds, the rice was saved in the chickens' small tummy and they ...

My mother in law was a businesswoman before. she had a two in one shop (combined two shops) but when she couldn't walk well,she had to sell her precious shop. i still remember waiting for my husband in her shop while my husband struggling to buy the things that i needed. i loved to see the way she treated her customers. her business was like her hobby. she would go to her shop quite late and came home early. She loved meeting and chatting with her friends there. She didn't think too much of profit. Once, she told me , she only sold one underwear that day but she didn't mind. she still looked happy. that's what we always want. But that was long years ago. Now, everything has changed. My respected and beloved father in law passed away last year. It was so sad. I didn't cry but when i was reading Al Quran , the tears just dropped on my cheeks and i felt hurt just like when my father passed away in 2015. That feeling killed my passion in writing and i left my old bl...

i love listening to the late Dato' Ismail Kamus's preaches. i learn a lot from his preaching. One of them was if we die, please don't depend on other people to pray for us, for example tahlil kenduri from our family, Quran recitation from them. He asked us to work hard when we are still alive to get reward from God. We, ourselves work hard for our paradise or heaven investment. there are so many good things we can do like performing prayers, fasting, donating, helping people, switching off fans and lights when there's nobody in the room, picking up plastic or rubbish on the floor because we don't want people to fall when they step on it. His advice was simple but can we do it? ok good bye and take care.

When you are sleeping, it is called die temporarily.( That's why don't sleep too much. There are so many things we can do to please God early in the morning between 3 a.m. and subuh time, like performing tahajjud prayer, zikri, reading Al Quran).  When you are dead, it is called sleeping permanently. But you can sleep or rest in your grave only if the angels do not busy punishing you. So , how to avoid them is by being good . Always be good. is it so difficult to enter paradise? All depend on our intention. If we do so many good things but just because we want people to acknowledge us or to praise us, i don't think God approves of our action. Sometimes, we do a little thing, for example giving food to a very hungry little girl but we do it sincerely. We pity that girl and we only spent rm4 for her food but may be that's the reason for us to enter paradise. God is Ar Rahman and Ar Rohiim, that's why we must always be good to every living thing. ok good bye and ...

Hello, is it me you're looking for? ha ha ha. just returned from the market. i bought a lot today. i am going to cook chicken rendang , my son's favourite. And i also bought brinjal. i thought of cooking fried brinjal chinese style . i watched Nabil, the awesome chef cooking it on Camca programme , tv hijrah. it was easy but the problem is i forget how to cook it. aiseyman...so,what am i going to do? Grill all the brinjals and dip with soy sauce with small chillies and onions. what a good plan. a pat on my shoulder. ok adios. it's my cooking with love day. bye.

Today, i try to talk about something serious. is it important for women to have their own money although they have a husband? Well, as for me, yes it's important for women to have their own money. Why did i say that? whyyyyyy....   1. if the woman is a housewife, make sure your husband give you a monthly allowance. That is your allowance so, you can spend the money whatever you like for instance, on make up, on clothes, handbag or you can do a facial treatment. The husband cannot touch the wife's allowance but if you want to spend the money for your children, all up to you. it's your money. And the amount of allowance depends on your husband's income. if he is very rich, he can give you rm5000, at least but if he is just an ordinary person, i think rm200 will be ok.   2. There's something good if you are working. You can afford a better life for your family and for your own self, of course.   3. And if you are working, your husband still needs to give you a...

Hello everybody! today, i had so much fun in my class. i asked my students to share their story in front of the class. it's up to them whether it's sad, funny but it must be based on their experience which means i want them to prepare their original story, not taken from the text book or movies. One of the stories that made me laugh is the pepejal story. It was told by Sharvin, the handsome boy who has a Penang girlfriend. Let me tell you about the class first. There are 16 pupils in the class.. So, 4 students will sit together in one group. What happened was on that day, while sharvin and his group were having a discussion, suddenly they heard a loud sound like a bomb exploded. All of them were shocked except one cute boy. He ran out of the class, laughing. After a while, then he came back and announced to the group proudly " What a relief, my pepejal has come out!" and he grinned from ear to ear with his satisfaction face. Now, i know why they kept calling him a ...