Am I arrogant?

Hello! i bought a new book at machang smo bookshop yesterday. i wanted to buy Laman magazine at first but there were only children magazines on the racks. So, i tried to find a romance novel but nothing attracted me. Then i saw this book, " Stop talking and start hijrah ". i just took the book , went to the counter and paid. i haven't finished reading , actually i read a bit but there's something disturbing me. When people ask you , " Do you want to enter heaven or hell? " Of course we will answer heaven. But do we act like we want to enter that place. I am talking about myself. i always prayed late because i wanted to finish my work first although i knew it's wrong. I know it's wrong to pray late but why did i still do that. Before the mco, i always went to the mosque with my husband. But after the mco, i am still praying at home. i told my husband, i will go to the mosque after i retire. But why do i have to wait? I love Allah and I really do but after reading the book, i feel that i just say it. Everybody can say they love Allah but do they mean it?