From Aku, with love

Hello! Good morning. Today, we are talking about sadaqah. i made a big mistake yesterday. Everybody knows that i am going to retire early and i won't get my pension for two years or to be more specific, 2 years 3 months. i tried to save some money and at the same time, spend it on my house/garden. Yesterday afternoon, after i finished my 4 periods class, two teachers saw me and excitedly asked me to sponsor something. I thought it was a lot so i told them i couldn't do it and explained my future situation. Now, i am feeling guilty. Haiii so this morning, i am going to find that teacher and give her some money. It's not good to say no, at least give a bit. That's my mother's best advice. There's one more thing i want to do for my school. Waqaf story books for the hip room. HIP room and the English Zone are my love for my students and the school.

i went to bandar satelit pulau sebang night market just now. it's the best, better than machang or tampin night market. You can find lots and lots of food here like mi rebus / mi bandung johor, mi sup Utara, my favourite jagung bakar, chicken porridge, rojak buah, shushi, ayam percik,cempedak goreng yes, lamb grill, kacang kuda rebus, apam balik pandan etc.etc.etc. fuh dahsyatttt (scream). I didn't water my plants today, i just looked at them while enjoying my food. It's very windy at my half-completed garden (or shall i say a quarter) and it made me hungry. I did admire one brother there. He's so cool. My husband bought 2 sets of chicken chop butter rice at his stall. Before that, i noticed the way he put the french fries was a bit slow. He put it one by one like he was arranging a jigsaw puzzle. There're many customers behind us but he didn't care. May be, his motto of business is "Wait or you will regret". Yup, his customers didn't mind waiting...

Sorry, i deleted the post about my x-maids. Well, all of us did make mistakes, including me. May Allah forgive us. Aamiin ya Allah. Actually, i wanted to share how i treated my x- maids when we ate in a restaurant. I always brought along my maid when we went back to kelantan or having family dinner outside. If a restaurant, we would order our food first then i would ask her to order hers. Or i let her choose the food that she liked at the food counter. Sometimes,i would let her sit together with us but all depend on the situation. It's bad if we are enjoying our meals whereas our maid is sitting there alone waiting for us, without any drink and food. They are humans like us, of course they also feel thirsty and hungry. At least, buy her a drink if you think the food is very expensive for your maid. All my maids enjoyed their outing. That's why my second maid cried when i wanted to take her back to the agent. i treated them well!

Hello! I went to a nursery today. The owner was so happy to see me because it has been years i didn't go there. He is very friendly and funny and i did buy a few plants. My husband chose the plants for me and i love all of them. They are different kinds and colours. Before we left, the owner said," ok teacher , see you next month". His confidence level, not bad hahahaha. But i didn't have the heart to tell him that next month, my husband will take me to another nursery to find the suitable plants for our garden. May be, Gadek Nursery. Looking forward to it. Good night!

Hello! it's raining here. I finished marking all my students' papers last Wednesday. it's a big relief actually. Today, i really had fun at school. We shared jokes and laughed, especially about our students' answers.  I remember, a few days after my father passed away, i was very sad but i had to go to school. In the morning, i was still not in a good mood but after that, my students shared stories with me, something that i couldn't imagine. I just laughed together with them. On the way home, when i stopped at the traffic lights then i remembered my father. I was so happy at school that i forgot i have lost my father forever.  There's one more incident. I had a terrible headache but i still went to school. My students did something in the class that made me laugh non stopped and it's loud. When i reached home, i realised that i didn't have the pain anymore. Wow! No need to see a doctor, no need to eat panadol, i just laughed. That's the secret.

Once,there was a mouse stranded in our house. I think it came inside through the kitchen sliding door. Luckily, my husband was the one who saw it when he opened the kitchen cabinet. So, my husband bought a mouse trap and he put a a bit of curry puff to bait the mouse. The next day, it was trapped. Later, i saw the curry puff was still inside the mouse trap. It's like the mouse didn't touch or eat it. I did ask my husband why the mouse didn't eat the curry puff although it was very hungry . "The mouse knew that it's going to die when it was trapped, so no appetite to eat the curry puff" . That's my husband's answer. Yes, it's true. i had that feeling before.

We had our dinner at one of the resaturants in Pahang. My husband ordered three sets of chicken fried rice and an omelette (telur dadar). After a while , the waitress came and told me that there's no telur dadar. So, i told her to prepare two bullseye eggs ( telur mata kerbau) instead. And she agreed. Then my husband looked at me and asked , why we cannot have telur dadar but we can have two telur mata? Ontah.

On the way home, i bought something for my Chinese friends, my neighbour " the orphan brothers", my favourite cleaner at school and my granddaughter. She is my PAR's daughter. When she is at school, she will come to my room to see me. She will watch me doing my work and ask questions. Sometimes, i gave her a storybook and if i have time , i will listen to her reading and she can read quite well. Last week, i was added in a new WhatsApp group. I was wondering who were in that group , so i checked. Alamak , it's her group. i told that group, sorry wan has already many groups and i have to leave. Phew. Yalah all the Year One kids in that group, suddenly this old woman was one of them. Haiiii.

This morning, my MIL's younger brother and his family came to visit her. While chatting with his sister that's my MIL, his uncle asked my husband about his work. And my husband told him that he's still working in Gemencheh. All of a sudden, my mother in law said the name of my husband's school correctly. All of them were surprised because she couldn't remember that well. I was not in the room so i didn't hear she said it. Later, my husband told me about it. I looked at my husband and told him the main reason why his mother can still remember his school's name because she's so proud that her son is a teacher in that school and she's very proud of her son. My husband kept quiet then he went to his mother's room. You know why i take a great care of my husband because i still remember what my mother in law told me when she's healthy. She wouldn't even let one mosquito to bite my husband when he was a baby and when my husband had an operation...

Hello! i bought colek buah in Tanah Merah. It's only rm5, cheap and varieties of fruits like mango,bidara, guava, pineapple and jambu air but today, there's no kedondong. That's why i love staying here in Kelantan. Every morning, i will have my favourite kerabu rice with grilled chicken. Tomorrow, we are going to Pasar Senin Machang. This place is awesome. Whatever you want, you will have it here. Spectacles, fashionable handbags, tudung, t shirts, blouses, shoes, comforters......the foods (kuih jepun kelate, etc) and drinks ( air kelape gonche, etc)..really crazy. You don't have to buy. only look at those things , you will feel umph. It's like a therapy. Like last time, i will try to find udang galah again. Not that big but you can choose. The price, ops i don't remember. It's very easy here. If your mother wants to eat chicken porridge, no problem. There're a few stalls here selling nasi air. Macam-macam ado hahahaha

Hello! When i reached my mother in law's house, all my three brother in laws were here. They were waiting for us but we couldn't have a long chat because it was late and two of them live in Kota Bharu so, it's quite far. But before they left, the one who took care of my MIL asked me to walk around the house. He had already put fence, no need for me to be afraid. My mother in law's house is a Malay kampung house and there's an orchard behind the house. Lots of durian and dokong trees. It's very cool here and I love it. No more chickens because my brother in law had already warned the owner to take his chickens back or ......Only two big cats are here, the ones that my late father in law liked to feed. I went to the kitchen. It's clean. The brothers had already cleaned it up and i smiled proudly. Thank you!

Sometimes, when i was feeling sad or worried about something, i would remember the picture of RR gang that we took together last time. Yes, there's one picture that i like so much. i don't have to look at the picture , it's already stuck in my mind. i would always smile or laugh whenever i remembered it. But now, not only that picture can make me smile, the embarrassing incident in the restaurant today also make me laugh. The problem is i thought nobody saw it but always this guy would see that unforgettable moment. Who else, my husbandlah. He watched it with his big eyes, may be first time in his life. I could see that he tried to stop himself from laughing. Luckily, my son didn't see it. While he was driving, i asked him to delete the incident that he saw just now from his memory. Then my husband laughed, a vey big laugh. Ugh. He told me that he had already erased it but after i mentioned it, the memory came back and he could give me a review about that incident. ...

Hello! I got a jab yesterday. it was the second booster. My husband asked me why i booked the appointment, how many teachers had done it bla bla bla. .....but he didn't want to get the jab and i also didn't encourage him to do it because we're going back to kelantan today so I was afraid he would get fever. I called my mom that night before the jab and she told me that she would pray for me but she didn't say that she wanted to do it. So it's me alone. My son wanted to take the first booster but i asked him to wait. Actually, i was scared because i heard a lot about the side effects. Besides, i had fever after the first booster jab so i was really scared. Before i entered the clinic, i did ask my husband to pray for me. He just smiled, even the doctor was also smiling when i recited Shahada before he injected my left arm! Insya Allah, I'll be ok.

In December 2013, i performed umrah with my husband and my son. At that time, i was still wearing jeans and long sleeve shirt because not only we did umroh, we also visited Turkey for 6 days. But i wore tudung bulat because it's so easy to put it on while travelling. No need to use pin left and right. But after returning from umroh, my father was unwell. i continued wearing jubah but not at school. After my father passed away in 2014, i lost my passion in writing and couldn't update my old blog. I didn't know what to write. I had no ideas and no mood. The excitement in writing had flown away on the day i lost my father. Not only that, i didn't feel to wear jeans and long pants. I've lost interest. Any sports event , i will wear baju kurung or my long skirt. i don't care what people said. My husband and his family didn't say anything, they just accept it. Until now, i never ask my husband whether he is happy or not. i just follow my heart.

My husband and I, we are different. Of course , he is a guy and i am a lady but it's more than that. When we were teachers in the same school, people like comparing both of us. During the meeting, my husband would keep quiet and jot down notes whereas i loved talking with my friends. My colleagues said that it's like my husband was a 5 Science student while his wife was the last class student. Haiii..what to do! Our early marriage, he did ask me to stop wearing jeans and short sleeve t shirt but i didn't listen to him. i always told him , you married me as who i am, so you should accept it. After a few years, he didn't make noise anymore about my clothes. But he still taught me on how to press the toothpaste , how to wash the dishes, bla bla bla..at first i was angry and i thought i married the wrong person. But after 10 years of being husband and wife, all my weird way of life , he accepted it wholeheartedly. Whatever i did , he's not angry anymore. He just laughe...

Haiii.......looking outside my house, actually the backyard, i can see only empty pots, except the two pots that my friend gave. Sedihnya,so sad. Always google on how to decorate the garden, how to arrange the flower pots....hehehe just see the pictures only without doing any actions. Last time, I transferred some pots from the front yard and i had chest pained so my husband asked me to stop doing it. He asked me to do it after i retire haiiiiiiii. What to do man, other people have taman bunga, i have taman pasu instead. But at least, i still have taman..hahahaha

Hello! When we are in padang Mahsyar, when our good or bad deeds are measured, anybody can come forward and tells God what we have done to that person. If we did bad thing, he or she will ask God to take our pahala or reward and transfer it to him or her. That's what we call muflis akhirat or bankrupt in the hereafter. But if we do good thing to that person, it will make our rewards heavier on our scale. All these things make me scared because everybody will be so selfish during that dup dap dup dap scary time. We don't care about our relationship anymore because all of us want to enter paradise and terrified of being send to hell. Last night, i told my husband that i love him so much that i would not burden him dunya and akhirat even deep in my heart , i am so scared to enter hell. May Allah forgive us and protect all of us from that awful, horrible place. Aamiin.

I watched YouTube about Mother or Emak ( Ibu) and how to treat our mother well, how to make her happy. Firstly, when we get our salary, make sure we put aside some money for her first. Not that we spend our money first and the extra , we give it to her. That's not cool. Next, if our mother is rich, it doesn't mean we don't have to give money to her. And of course, she won't ask for it. But if she still doesn't want to accept your money, you can buy something special for her, take her along with you during the holidays or take her to a place that she likes. i still remember in 2017. My mother really wanted to perform her umroh. She had money but nobody could take her there. Everybody was busy. Then, she asked me. i had money at that time but it was for my hajj. And to take my mother there, it's not only me, my husband and my son would also follow us. And my mother had to stay in the nearest hotel to masjidil haram and that was expensive. She kept telling me, ...

Last Wednesday, there was an essay question about friendship. My 4 science asked me to give a sample on how to write a good essay. Then, i remembered my blog, my post about my gang, the Red Ribbon. So, i opened my blog and read it. Easy to find it because it's the most popular post. When I mentioned the name " Red Ribbon" , everybody laughed. The boys said , " teacherrrr ". I just continued reading. Slowly, they stopped making noise and listened to my story. After i finished reading it, i looked at my students. Some of them looked impressed, some of them smiled but they didn't say anything. I told my students that it's easy to find friends but to have true friends, it's very difficult . It's hard to find someone who can share everything with you, either your sadness or happiness or may be your pain. They did ask me about my hostel life with my gang. I just laughed. I ended my Red Ribbon story by asking them to write an essay about friendship. A...

Hello! This morning , all form 5 students had to answer a BM essay. It's about taking your friend to interesting places, of course in Malaysialah, where else. I was there because there's only a new female BM teacher in the hall and i was afraid the pupils would bully her. While i was there, a few pupils came to see me . They asked me about Cameron Highlands, Langkawi, Kuala Lumpur and even Malacca. Some of them have never gone out of Tampin so they didn't know what to write. Haiiiii....this is the main reason why i had two school trips before, first to Malacca then the second and last was Kuala Lumpur/ Shah Alam. Why i don't want to organise another school trip is all because of their seniors' attitude. We had the KL trip in 2019. I had to prepare the paperwork first. After being approved, i started completing the trip forms. I had to type all the students' name with their ic number. Ustazah chose her Pendidikan Islam club members and i chose the students accor...

Hello! Good evening! Today, i came across something interesting in the Star newspaper. It's Lisdawati's ( a Malaysian actress) words of wisdom. She says "Marriage can be challenging but acceptance is the key to a successful marriage". Yup, we accept our partner's strength and weakness, or may be weaknesses , then we can live happily ever after. That's the KEY and she's absolutely right. BUT, in a different situation, if your partner is an abuser, abuse you physically and mentally, don't accept him or her. It's your partner's weakness but stay away from that person please. Take care!