From Aku, with love

In 2017, i had a so called boil on my left breast. it was hard when i touched it. I told my husband and he insisted to take me to pantai hospital but i refused. I was scared. i just accepted my fate. Then i drew a family line something about the cancer cases from my mother's side. First, my grandma's sister( my mother's aunty), then my mother's sister and .....was it me? My mother's daughter. i was scared, really scared. i kept thinking of death and i lost my appetite. My mother was staying with me during that painful time. When we watched tv together, there's no more chatting. i was like in my own world. Then the following day, it was red around the so called boil. It's getting worse. I showed it to my husband and he begged to take me to hospital. i looked at him and felt pity. So, i agreed but i must tell my mother first because i had to take her back to her house before going to hospital. That night, i went to see my mother and kept quiet. She looked at m...

Hello good morning. i just finished my Cinderella's chores in the kitchen. Every time i swept the floor, cooked or washed the dishes, i would tell my husband, ' "Excuse me, Cinderella dg54 is on duty". Sometimes, my husband would smile and sometimes he just ignored what i said. Yalah, the only Cinderella who worked less but ate a lot. i think i put on weight staying in Kelantan. I know my husband pities me because any school holidays , we always stay in Kelantan but so far i have no problem. I did mark my students' books here and almost every night , i give exercise on the English class telegram. Check, mark their work and explain for their wrong answers. About performing umroh, i don't have the heart to pray for it. We will take more than one week for umroh , not included the preparation before leaving and the one week rest after we reach home.My husband cannot take care of his mother during that time. So , that's it. But watching how the three brothers t...

i don't know why i fart a lot. i will know the type of gas that expelled from my...tut. if my husband smiled or laughed, it means that fart is the funny type. The sound of it ..long, loud and sometimes like a tyre punctures or a balloon bursts. That funny fart is ok but the soundless one, that's scary because my husband would jump like seeing a ghost. And i would show my innocent face and asked him " Why are you like this? You had no problems whenever i farted before." Then my husband would reply " Yes our eàrly marriage, i rarely heard of it but now pot here , pot there haiiiii ", then i continued ," luckily you love me so much". Then he became speechless. And when there were people around, my dearest husband would take the blame if i farted. I would tell my husband not to fart again or go to the toilet if he wants to fart. A good actress , right? Later , i would tell my husband that i am a lady so it's like a big sin if people hear my fart bu...

i have a very special friend. She accompanied me to kelantan because my fiance's( now my husband) sister was going to get married. It was in 1995. I remembered that we were very late . I stayed in Cheras at that time and she called her boyfriend to take us to Puduraya bus station. We just reached on time. My fiance looked relieved when he saw me and i introduced my "chaperone", Mashitah to him. Mashitah wanted to sit beside me in the bus but she gave her seat to my fiance. She understood my fiance's expression very well hahaha. When we reached kelantan , Shitah and I stayed at his grandmother's house which was in front of his mother's house. Now, that house has become a songkok/ baju melayu factory. I slept with shitah in one room and my fiance slept outside of the room. That was the time he knew i wore contact lenses when he saw me wearing spectacles early morning. The next day, Cik, my fiance's grandmother, asked me to cook and she gave me some beef. i ...

Have you ever sent a wrong sticker or emoticon? i did that, not once but a few times. It was very embarrassing. I wanted to send a flower sticker but i pressed the wrong one so, i ended sending my old friend a grave stone sticker on a WhatsApp group. Can you imagine that? i did delete it but i was afraid she saw what i sent earlier so i sent her a personal apology. The second one, my friend announced a very good news on the school telegram that her basketball team won a first place in a district competition. i was driving my car at that time and stopped at the traffic light. I read her message and was so happy for her but when i wanted to send a thumb up sticker, it was already a green light so i continued driving. Later, when i reached home, i realised i sent a thumb down sticker right after the good news message. It was horrible, so straightaway i apologised , congratulated her team then deleted the sticker. And the next day, i gave a Cadbury almond chocolate to her. She laughed beca...

Hello! Good evening. It's so difficult to update my blog here. When i was stucked in the Jerteh mosque because of the flood last Monday, i slept with my husband and my son. It was already midnight. My husband took us to the guys' prayer area. I saw a lady sleeping with her children and the rest were all guys. My husband brought along our blankets. Everybody was sleeping except us. Then my son fell asleep. My husband told me that he couldn't sleep because he had already slept before we left Petron. We heard loud snores with different sounds . Some sound like pendekar bujang lapok's snores. I laughed. After a few minutes, i heard cute snores near me. it's from my dearest husband. I looked at him. I wanted to touch his forehead but better not. He looked exhausted. I listened to all the snores and smiled. it's like living in the snore world hahaha

Have you ever thought of who's going to take care of you when you're old? it doesn't mean if you have many children, all of them will do that and if they do, consider that you are very lucky. And it doesn't mean if you have only sons, they will leave you alone. Some people said it's better to have daughters than sons but is it true? Like my mother in law, she has four sons and one daughter. All of her sons take a good care of her and there's something good when she has many sons. They can lift her when she cannot get up or walk because they are men. And these strong guys not only can do the tough things but they can also change their mother's diapers, bathe her, put talcum powder on her face , massage her legs and put on socks for her because these guys are her sons. They don't want to disturb their sister because she has also a husband to take care of. Even their wife is also lucky because whatever related to their mother, the husbands will do it. The h...

Hello! it's still raining in Kelantan. When there was flood in Bandar Permaisuri on December 18, I was there. Luckily,we were stucked in Bandar Permasuri Petron. We stayed there for two days and one night. Yup, sound like staying in a hotel. As i mentioned earlier, Petron petrol station is the best and I really mean it. The Petron manager or may be the owner , i was not sure, gave us food like fried chicken with rice + vegetables, fried kue teow, breads and cakes. She also gave us free mineral water. There were around 30 cars stucked in Petron but she didn't mind. She kept saying we're her guests and thinking what was the next menu to give us. The toilets are very clean because she hires two cleaners. And talking about the cleaner. Before we left, my husband wanted to donate some money to the cleaner as he saw her mopping the floor. After a while my husband came back. I asked whether he had given the money to the diligent cleaner. He said no because she didn't want to a...

Sometimes, we don't have to be rich to do good deeds. If we can make other people happy that's good. Make them laugh or smile, it can relieve their stress. Switch off the fan and the light when there's nobody there. Or may be clean the whiteboard after using it. If the students forget to do it, the teacher has to do it. No more saying, " it's not my duty today". Or "I am a teacher, student must clean the whiteboard , not me" . And please don't throw rubbish anywhere you like. After using the toilet, you just throw the tissue on the floor or inside the bowl. I really pity the cleaner. She has already cleaned the toilet so, we suppose try to maintain the cleanliness. We throw rubbish on the floor because we know the cleaner will clean it up. " It's not right if we keep saying that the cleaner's salary is to make everything look clean." And mothers please throw the diaper into the garbage bin, not leave it at the sink. About the ch...

As you all know, i attended my nephew's wedding yesterday. The host had prepared a few dining tables for the guests, it means for my big family. My sister and i saw our bang ngah sat at one table, so we went there and sat with him. Then came my other brothers, my husband, my brother in law, my nieces , my son, bla bla and bla. When they wanted to sit with us came a lady. She told us that the table was for the bride and the groom. I looked at my sister, she looked at me. I looked at my husband then lastly, i looked at the one day king's foods ( makanan raja sehari) on the table. Mamma mia, sedapnya, yummy... very tempting. My sister didn't move, so i made a drastic decision by not leaving that table. We didn't want to follow our husband. So my husband, my brother in law and my son went to another table without us. Then my mother and my nieces together with their husband sat with us.The bride and the groom ( my nephew) sat in front of me. My sister and i looked at the fo...

I attended a wedding today. It's my nephew's wedding. He married to a single mother, older than him. A woman with grown up kids. i told him that as long as he and his wife love each other, take care of each other, complete each other ..... that's enough for me. People said love is blind but love is not blind . We just didn't want to open our mind to accept it. When i looked at them, holding hands and smiling, i am very sure they have chosen the right partner to share everything whether it is sad or bad. As their aunty or Mak Su, I just pray for their happiness. Love both of you, muahh

Life is short. We don't know when we are going to die. if we have a long life, it won't be the same like when we are young. We won't have the same energy and the same mind. We can't remember that much when we are getting old. Now , you are 40 or 50 something, make fully use of it. Spend time with your family and friends. Enjoy your life but at the same time be good to everybody. May Allah bless all of us. Aamiin.

When my only child was having a high fever and the specialist told me that he was seriously ill, I became weak. My son was one and a half years old that time. It was only one week after Eidil Fitri. It was in 2005. Yes, i still remember it. People were still in hari raya mood. We were in Seremban General Hospital. After the specialist explained everything about my boy, i just kept quiet. i was speechless. i didn't know what to say and what to ask. After the specialist and the doctors team left, i walked slowly to the musolla (surau) . I didn't know why i was going to that place. But when i opened the door, i saw my mother. Straight away i went to her, hugged her legs and cried. i just cried and cried. Then i heard someone asked my mother. She had a soft voice . She asked my mother why i was crying. My mother told her that my son was seriously ill. Then my mother asked her why she was there. Calmly she told my mom that she was a cancer patient. I was shocked and looked at the ...

When you help somebody or do any good deeds without expecting anything in return that's what we call sincerity. Yup, that sounds noble but can we do it? Sometimes, we had done a good deed to that person but he or she just ignored us like we never met or never exist. It happened to me many times and at first , i was angry and i did cry but after learning the word " sincerity " i tried to avoid the feeling. It's not easy especially if we had done a lot. Don't get angry . Just try to accept it with open heart. May be the good deeds that we did, we don't get any compliments or thanks or may be the person that we helped, don't remember us anymore or forget our name .....just accept it. I always bear in mind, as long as God knows what i do and be pleased with what i did, that's enough for me. God's reward is indescribable. Percayalahhhhh....trust me!

It was frustrating to watch the player couldn't kick the ball into the goal during the penalty kick. i asked my husband was it because of pressure and he said yes. Yup, i couldn't blame them. I stood up and lifted my long skirt. I took three steps back and ran. I pretended like kicking a ball and shouted goalllllll. I looked at my husband and asked him whether i could join the team. He said, "Yes, of course. .You can join Sepahtu (comedians).

On the way to Malacca today, i fell asleep. Actually, i was still feeling tired after i had the English Camp yesterday. But when my husband wanted to take us out, i just said YES, YES and YES. Really need a break. When i was sleeping, suddenly i felt someone nudging me. It was my husband. He was smiling while driving and told me to wake up. I asked him why. Well, he said as usual i slept with my mouth opened. Alamak, How big is it? Then he replied, " your standard" . i didn't know that he has already set a standard for how big my mouth will open when i am sleeping. I did a demo , "Is it this big? "I opened my mouth widely. He just smiled and said nothing. No commentlah tu

i had a serious conversation, i mean a very serious conversation with my husband after buying nasi lemak for our breakfast this morning.  Me: I don't know why i love you more and more. When I look at you, it's like i am falling in love with you again and again. Are you using minyak pengasih (love potion)?  Hubby : I am using minyak Attar ( attar oil).

Look small to you but it is big to me. As a teacher, i prefer to have students who have very good attitude. May be, they are not smart but very helpful. If they are smart, kind and helpful...wow that's a perfect package. Like today, i was having an English Camp briefing with my Form 1, form 2 and form 3 students and i didn't realise other teachers were busy preparing themselves for a photo session. it's for the school magazine. I didn't hear the announcement. There was another teacher at the hall, a male teacher. He wanted to do SEGAK for his form 5 students. Both of us were busy doing our work. Then , my sweet 5 psv2 girl came running to me and said "teacher, everybody is waiting for you......" . I saw my male colleague was leaving the hall. That girl helped me to arrange all the lists and she asked me to leave. She would put all my things on my table in the KB room. See, a good- hearted girl. That girl, i always scolded her when she repeated her mistakes be...

Last night, my son did his shahadah, from page 16 to 21. It's the first juzuk of Al Quran. i told my husband not to make noise. i did my paper marking in the kitchen while my husband was watching his football world cup . A mute football match. I asked him to turn off the volume. Pity him. My husband looked bored and sleepy whereas i was excited and proud because i can't do what my son did. Even memorising only a few pages, i am still proud of him. I listened to my boy's hafazan and smiled. Then i remembered something important and went to my husband . I didn't want to disturb my son. So, i told my husband the story using my secret weapon - my soft, sexy voice complete with face expression to make it more interesting. I ended my story and looked at him, wanted to know his response. He said, " Awak cakap apa Yang, tak dengar". He couldn't hear what i said. Haiiiii really wasting my voice. What to do, i still love him with all my heart. At least, he tried to...

From Kelantan to my place, it will take around 8 hours. And of course we need to go to the toilet a few times. I always went to the mosque's toilet although my husband would stop at any petrol station to go to the toilet there. But not me, i preferred to bear it until we reached the mosque. There was no Pantai Timur Highway (LPT) at that time, so there was no RNR. Now, every thing has changed. There is RNR and i have my favourite petrol station that is PETRON. The toilets are very clean and complete with the hand wash liquid. Any PETRON station , the toilets are clean. So my problem is solved. On the way to Kajang to visit my son , my husband and i had lunch at Genting Sempah. At first i didn't want to go to the toilet because there're so many people and i was afraid the toilets were dirty . You know, tissue papers on the bowl,....But to my surprise, the toilets are very clean. Out of my expectation. I smiled at the cleaner when i saw her wiping the mirrors. She did a great...

We are going to leave Kelantan tomorrow. It's just a short visit . The most important thing is to meet our dearest Ma. Last time, she had fever because of missing my husband. That's why we are worried about her. And this Monday, we still have to go to school. It's tiring but as long as everybody is happy, it's fine with me. One night and one day staying here, lots of food i have tasted. Nasi kerabu, Mee kuah, the beef soup, colek perut, cek mek cake and may be tomorrow morning, i am going to have nasi dagang for my breakfast.......i love all the food. I seldom cook here because it's such a waste not to taste those food and my husband didn't mind at all because he's so grateful to have me anywhere he goes. Yalah, who else wants to tell jokes or stories while he is driving. I am scared that he will fall asleep without me. He knows i am tired, even tomorrow night, i have to do a relief timetable for the teachers who are absent on Monday. That's why he nev...

When you receive a gift from anybody, have you ever thought how that person bought that thing? You just said thank you. Don't worry , i also did that. But when i bought something for someone, for example a wedding present, there're a few obstacles i have to go through. Firstly, i have to persuade my husband to take me to the mall. My husband has to sacrifice his free time just to fulfill my request. Next, i spend quite a long time to choose the best present, may be an electric kettle, then i have to wait for the staff to test it. If it is broken, i have to wait for the staff to find a replacement. if let say there's no replacement, i have to find another thing. haiiii. After buying the thing, i have to line up at the cashier counter. If there are many customers, it will be a long queue. Lastly, after paying, i have to go to the customer service counter to wrap the present.  See, with all the things that i have to do just to buy a present , i think all of us, including myse...

Hello. Let's talk about friendship. Do we need friends in our lives? Is it enough if we just have our family? No friends, only family. When i was in secondary school, i had a gang. It was called Red Ribbon. Actually, the name was Red Ribbon Pirates Gangster, sound scary right? But most of us forget that name, so we stick to Red Ribbon. We studied in a boarding school in Melaka. That's how we became so close. No secret among us. Any problems, we would help each other. The best part is until now, we are still good friends but i think it's more than that. We are like sisters now. One of us is a doctor, so any health problems we just ask her on the WhatsApp group or text her personally. i typed a lot about them on my old blog. How we solved our problems together, be naughty together hahaha and never thought of being selfish. If one of us was being hurt, all of us would feel the pain. Our teenage life was so colourful. Now, we have our own family and one of us has already two d...