From Aku, with love

in 2020, during the mco, i had sinus . it was horrible . I felt better if i sneezed. At that time, people were scared of sneezing. It's a symptom of Covid 19. My dearest husband ordered a bottle of habbatus Sauda oil. Every morning, i drank a tablespoon of it. it's a bit spicy but i felt relieved. i had no more problem in breathing and no more nose blockage. Now, i don't drink it every day because i will have mouth ulcer (it makes me feel hot) . But sometimes when i have a nose blockage, i just take a tablespoon of it and use my tongue to rub it on my palate. After a few minutes, my nose will be ok. All depend on your body whether it can accept this oil or not. It suits me well and not everybody's willing to take it, including my son. Whatever, we must tawakkal to Allah and visit the doctor or specialist first. My nose was x-rayed and that's how i know i had sinus.

A lady with a slim tummy, she can walk 'mendada' ( just like a rooster walks), sexy right, but a lady with a pot belly ( like me ) walks, that is called 'memperut". That's hurt. i should control eating. must eat less rice and do more exercise. But i love eating rice, even my breakfast is also rice. it gives me extra energy to teach my active students. It means at night, i try not to eat rice. Bread will be ok ... but this evening instead of buying bread , i bought marry brown chicken porridge. haiiii need to control my appetite. Last night, i managed to eat bread for my dinner but early this morning, i went to the canteen to have my breakfast. i really hope i won't get back my gastric.

Hello everybody! Last week, i asked my students to use the word 'patient' in their sentence. A girl named Chloe straight away said, " Teachers must be patient because they are teachers". i looked at that girl and asked, " Is that what you think of me." And with confidence, she said "Yes". When she said that, suddenly i felt guilty because that morning i scolded my 3 A students. So, am i a teacher because i lost patience with them? The next day, when i entered 3A, i looked at the students and started teaching. When they were talking, i stared at them and they kept quiet. Wow, that's good. i didn't smile at them , i just taught and taught. Then, we had a quiz. they answered my questions correctly and what else could i do ? So, i made a big announcement. I told them that they could have an early recess today because they behaved well in my class. All of them shouted Yehhhh and the monitor proudly stood up and said "Thank you, teacher...

i just listened to the late ustaz ismail kamus's talk. it's about humans' level in islam. 1. taubat 2. warok. If the food is not confirmed halal, the wàrok people won't eat. 3. zuhud. only the rich can become zuhud. 4. sabr ( patient). Allah always be together with a patient person. Example of Nabi Musa's story. . 5. syukr Do the ones that Allah ask but prevent yourself from doing the wrong ones. 6. tawakkal 7. redha ( the highest level) please read about Nabi Ayub

The best - Students who are not only good at academic but they are also polite with teachers. Whenever they meet any teachers, they will greet the teacher although the teacher doesn't teach them.i am so touched with their attitude and i am so proud , i still have this kind of students in my school. My favourite - Students who are weak at academic but attitude is good. They listen to their teachers and do their work. One more thing, they are very helpful. There was one year, i cried because the form 5 girls came to see me before sitting for their examination. I was in Perak at that time. When they shook my hand, i cried and hugged the girls. They were weak at academic but very skillful. i always asked them to help me especially for decorating a place. It was very impressive because they were like professional interior designers. Until now, i miss those girls. Dot dot dot students - i don't want to give any comments because they don't deserve it. Let them be in their ow...

Yaa hayyu yaa Qoyyum

Laa ilahaillallah

Ya Allah. # Let's do it to prove our love to Allah. Thank you Allah.

Subhanallahil azeemi wa bihamdih # sometimes, when we remember Allah, we can do zikr. This is to show our love to our God. Hopefully, when we remember Allah, Allah will remember us as His slave. We become close to Allah. insya Allah.

i loved watching korean dramas. I know park bo gum, park... alamak forget his full name, sorry and dramas like healer, love in the moonlight , royal agent, fight for your way and many more. Then i watched chinese drama and i was crazy about the drama . Almost every day, i would watch it. i felt relax after that. but i had problem because of watching the Chinese drama. it's so difficult for me to wake up early to perform tahajjud prayer. i would get up at 5 a.m. , sometimes nearly subuh prayer . At first , i didn't notice but then i felt something wrong . After listening to the late Dato' ismail kamus, i made a conclusion that watching the kissing scenes are also types of maksiat or sins. So, i stopped. until now, i don't watch korean or Chinese dramas anymore. Sometimes, i still remember the story , the handsome actors and the gorgeous actresses but i just ignore the feeling or the temptations to watch it. What a sacrifice.....

Tomorrow is my husband's birthday. At first, i wanted to buy him an electric lunch box , so i asked my husband to order it on shoppe but he didn't want to. Then i remember Amelia, the brownies towkey. i texted her whether she can send it to my husband at his school tomorrow morning. And good news, she said ok but she asked me to pay extra C.O.D. i told her no problem as long as i can give something to my husband on his birthday. Long time ago, when we were dating, i did post surprise gifts to him, a monkey soft toy, a box of mangoes. That's what i call 'LOVE'. Last night, i told my husband that i pray to Allah, he can enter a paradise door that is for a good husband and son like him. Aamiin ya Allah. I really hope he will love the chocolate topping brownies and share with his colleagues. we just wait for the result tomorrow....good night.

How to cook cockles soup? So easy. First, wash the cockles then put the cockles into a pot. Add only one and quarter of water ( use mug) into it. Don't forget the lemon grass, shallots and salt. Then start boiling. when a few cockles opened their shell, straight away you turn off the stove. Walla, your cockles soup are ready to be eaten. My dearest sister kak chik gave me the recipe. Have a try....and good luck.

As a mother , i always want the best for my son. i think all parents are like that. Even as a teacher, i always want the best for my students. When they failed in the exam, after studying hard, i would feel bad. i will work harder to make sure they pass in the next exam. If the students are really lazy and don't want to improve themselves, that type of students, i don't think i can help. So does my son. Before he joins tahfiz, i didn't know how to help him. He's not doing well in academics, especially maths. when i heard his hafazan on al Kahfi, i was surprised. oh then i knew , he's good at memorising al Quran. I am so grateful to God. Thank you Allah. My son always feels inferior but i always told him that i could never beat him when it comes to Quran memorising. I am not good. When someone reads Yaasiin, i could follow without looking at the text but i couldn't memorise it alone. I need someone to read it then i can follow. Not like my son. He can memor...

Before we left mother in law's house last Thursday.   Aku : Ma, kita nak gerak dah ( we are leaving)   MIL : Bila nak maghi? ( when are you coming back?)   Aku : Insya Allah bulan 10 ( God willing, October)   MIL : Bule lapei ( August).   Aku : Tak boleh kelik bulan 8 sebab sekarang ni dah bulan 9.(we cannot come back in August because now is September).  I have already missed Ma( MIL). May Allah protect her and bless her with good health. Aamiin.

When we buy a house,we will decorate it with furnitures. when we have extra money, we want to renovate our house. That's normal. I also did that. we love our house because we live in it. But please don't love our house too much that we forget our permanent house in the hereafter ( akhirat). Don't ever think that we will live in that house forever. When the time comes, we will leave that house . Our son or our daughter will live there. And if he or she is not here anymore , the house will be belonged to his wife (our daughter in law)or her husband (our son in law). Then our daughter in law or our son in law remarries. After that our daughter in law or son in law dies. Now, the house belongs to his new wife or new husband. At the end , an outsider, someone that we don't know lives in our house. Not us, not our children, not our in laws live there. Ouch that's hurt. Life in this world is just a test.

Almost one year we didn't come to this place. it's situated in Ayer Keroh Melaka. This Sunday, my son will go back to his hostel so tonight, we take him to this special place. We used to order chicken mango but tonight we order steamed fish, tomyam and salted egg crab. My son is worried about his hafazan and i am trying to make him happy. i cannot order bandung soda as i am afraid i will get chest pained. So teh o for me pleaseeeee # i am so happy because the chief waiter and the cashier still remember me.The chief waiter was quite surprised to see me at first and welcomed us wholeheartedly. i really like the restaurant, not only the food is yummy, the service and the staffs are 5 star. Gendang gendut tali kecapi, kenyang perut senang hati.

just returned from my extra class. only three students came. It was raining heavily but that's not a good excuse for being absence. A mother sent me a message informing me that her son was not well. I accepted it but Thanam told me that she was also not well and she attended my class. Sometimes, i don't look at the quantity. Like today, i focused on how to give quality lessons to my excellent students. Although Puah is weak , i consider him as excellent because of his attitude. First, i did writing with them because how to do listening if the thunder is louder than the speaker. Well, all of them have the basic on writing . Very good. So today, i taught them on how to get a good mark. We still had 45 minutes to do listening. It supposed to be a listening test but as i just had three learners so i cancelled the test . We had a listening exercise instead. Asked them to listen ,circle the answer and told me what's their answer..I didn't respond. I played the audio again and...

i heard bad news when i reached home last night after 9 hours travelling from kelantan. my former schoolmate passed away because of heart attack. He was 52 years old. in 2019, i lost my grandmother, my auntie Busu, my uncle Busu and my sister Kak lang. My grandmother died when she was 93 years old. She loved eating although after that she would have stomachache but she kept telling us , don't worry i have my medicine. She loved pizza and satay. Yup she still had her teeth. Only one month before she died , she lost her appetite. Then after a few months, i lost my aunty. After praying asar, suddenly she collapsed and doctor told my mother that her sister had a major stroke. After a few days, she passed away. Her grave is near my grandmother's. Then after three days, my uncle passed away. This is what i called a sudden death. His grave is next to his wife's. After a few months, i lost my dearest sister Kak lang . She died because of cancer. Her grave is near my Busu and my gra...

i don't remember the last movie that i watched in the cinema. In 2018, my husband my son and i wanted to watch Avengers - End game. Is it right, the title? i had checked the time to watch the movie. wow, we could watch it at 11 a.m. it means the movie would end before Zuhur Adzan. What happened was when we were ready to leave our house, then i heard news that the famous ulamak, Dato' Hasan Din passed away. i told my son that we couldn't go to the cinema to show our respect to the well known ulamak. I always watched his programme on tv hijrah " Nasihat Atuk" . Is it right, the title? instead of watching the movie, we went shopping and had lunch outside. i still remember it was one or two months after coming back from performing our pilgrimage ( hajj) . Mày be it was not right to go to the cinema with the title hajj or hajjah. So, until now , we don't go to the cinema although my son begged me to take him to a cinema to watch " Abang Long Fadhil 3" ....

Every day, i fall in love with my husband. The way he speaks, the way he smiles , the way he hugged his mom , lifted her then put her on the mattress gently.....all that melted my heart. Once, i told my husband, i was worried about my mother if i pass away. Now, i am not worried about her because i know my brothers and my sister will love her as much as i do. Once, i told my husband that i was worried about my son if something bad happens to me but now, i am not worried anymore. Our son has grown up and he is independent . Now, i am worried about my husband. The way he treated me, i am afraid that he cannot accept if he loses me one day

Thia world is like a transit to us. How many years we can live. 60? 70? 80? 100 years? This is not a place for us to rest or to relax. Zikri, donation, prayer, do good deeds.....they are all our investment for the hereafter( akhirat). Late Datuk Ismail Kamus did say: There are 4 types:- a) People who gain profit in the world and in the hereafter. b) People who gain profit in the world but loss in the hereafter c) People who are loss in the world but gain profit in the hereafter d) People who are loss in the world and in the hereafter. May God bless all of us. Be good ok. Take care and bye...

Yesterday and today, i cooked chicken porridge for my mother in law. Of course, i googled the recipe first because i couldn't cook ordinary porridge like i used to cook. To make it special, i would boil the chicken wings first to get the stock. i boiled it quite long. I also added shredded chicken and carrots into the porridge. Before my husband served the porridge, i would heat it first by adding the chicken stock into it and put a bit salt. i fried shallots and garlic, then i put it on top of the porridge. Not only that , i also put a bit celery leaf to make the porridge smell good.  A good tip from me, before you serve any food, make sure you taste it first. if you don't like it, other people also feel the same. But if you love the taste, so does everybody. Don't just cook because it's your responsibility to prepare the food. Cook with love and make everybody happy with it. Be good to your mother in law and your husband will appreciate you more than before. Chiya, Ch...

From Aku, with love...'Aku', sounds wild and fierce rather than 'me', like a sweet, shy little girl. ok back to the topic. What should you do when you have an argument with your husband? What should you do? There is a situation when we are unhappy about something. Everybody is trying to prove that he or she is right. it's better if one of you stops and leaves the place. Go to another place and to me the best place to release my unsatisfaction is....tadaa the toilet, where else. I can wash my face or take my bath to cool me down. And at the same time, i can speak to myself. Nobody hears what i am saying. Only the walls, the shower and my lifebuoy body wash. They won't share or viral what I said in the toilet. They are good listeners. Are they? Hahaha. So, say whatever you want to say . You won't hurt anybody's feeling because only you in the toilet. Then after you cool down, come out of the toilet, go to your bedroom and if your husband is there, say H...

Staying here in machang, my husband's hometown, i make friends with homeless animals. there are two cats and quite a number of chickens. Well, my late father in law always fed the cats, so i follow his step. i put a lot of food for the cats outside and it finished after a few minutes. wow, these cats were really hungry. This morning, as usual my son put the food outside for them while i was drinking my tea. then i heard noise outside like fighting. i opened the door and the poor cats were there looking at me , begging for help and over there, i saw the chickens were eating their food greedily. Spontaneously, i did my Watcha just like karate kid ops karate veteran , then all the chickens dispersed fearfully. hahaha. but i felt pity to the chickens. As there was a leftover rice in the rice cooker, like a Tamil movie hero , i ran with the pot and put the rice quite far from the cats' food. Again, within a few seconds, the rice was saved in the chickens' small tummy and they ...

My mother in law was a businesswoman before. she had a two in one shop (combined two shops) but when she couldn't walk well,she had to sell her precious shop. i still remember waiting for my husband in her shop while my husband struggling to buy the things that i needed. i loved to see the way she treated her customers. her business was like her hobby. she would go to her shop quite late and came home early. She loved meeting and chatting with her friends there. She didn't think too much of profit. Once, she told me , she only sold one underwear that day but she didn't mind. she still looked happy. that's what we always want. But that was long years ago. Now, everything has changed. My respected and beloved father in law passed away last year. It was so sad. I didn't cry but when i was reading Al Quran , the tears just dropped on my cheeks and i felt hurt just like when my father passed away in 2015. That feeling killed my passion in writing and i left my old bl...

i love listening to the late Dato' Ismail Kamus's preaches. i learn a lot from his preaching. One of them was if we die, please don't depend on other people to pray for us, for example tahlil kenduri from our family, Quran recitation from them. He asked us to work hard when we are still alive to get reward from God. We, ourselves work hard for our paradise or heaven investment. there are so many good things we can do like performing prayers, fasting, donating, helping people, switching off fans and lights when there's nobody in the room, picking up plastic or rubbish on the floor because we don't want people to fall when they step on it. His advice was simple but can we do it? ok good bye and take care.