From Aku, with love

Hello! i am still feeling tired but i am satisfied because i had done my best to help my students. In 2019, i taught 2 weak classes. All students passed in 5 psv1 and one student managed to get B whereas a very few students failed in 5 psv2 but they're special case. They didn't know how to read. They just copied whatever the teachers wrote on the whiteboard. It doesn't mean when we teach weak classes , we just accept their fate. Oh they are weak, of course they will fail. That's bad, very bad. We must try our best to make them pass. That's our duty as teachers. Same with good class. It doesn't mean that they are good students then you just wash your hands and do nothing. Yup they are smart, so no need to teach them. Can we do that? I taught 5 Science in 2020. My school is always the parents' last choice for their kids. Although they're 5 Science, they're not like other schools' 5 science. But i manage to make one of them get A +, 2 students A, 2 ...

Hello! Good evening! Today, i had my last class with my Form 5. It's sad. They're like my children. They've improved a lot. They did four essays yesterday. Today, they just did two essays and 8 objective questions in paper 1. Almost two hours spending my time with them and i kept looking at their cute face. Chloe and Thanam, both of them are determined girls. They know what they want and work hard for it. Alden is a kpop boy whose brother got 8 A in SPM 2020. His brother got A + in his Add Maths. But Alden is different. He was naughty at first. Always showed his arrogant face to me but later when i showed him how easy to pass English, he became interested and wanted to learn. Same situation with Bakir who has a very smart brother. Their brothers were in 5 Science, i mean the first class but they are in the last class. They are smart but in a different way. May be not in academic but something else. Most of the students in that class have short memory, especially Puah who is...

Hello. There's something important i would like to share with you. I learned it from the late ustaz ismail kamus. He asked us to read suroh Yaasiin after subuh prayer. Yes, everything will be easy for you. Insyaa Allah. I also read suroh al waqiah before i sleep and before subuh prayer. Suroh al mulk is a must read before sleeping. Last time, i was so tired that i didn't read both suroh. I just went to bed but i couldn't sleep. Since then, how tired i am, i must read suroh al waqiah and suroh al mulk before sleeping. May Allah bless all of us. Aamiin ya Allah. Take care.

Hello! I watched a Malay drama today " Penghujung mihrab". I love the story about how two persons from a different family background fell in love. But it was a sad ending because the heroine died before they got married. She's so positive when she said "orang tak sakitpun boleh mati jugak" which means all of us will die, although we're not sick. But when the time has come, we will leave this world whether we are ready or not. I cried while watching the drama and after the drama ended, i joined my husband wàtching Sepahtu on YouTube. It was a comedy show but i was so tired that i fell asleep. i was snoring when i woke up and noticed that my husband was not on the bed. He went to the living room because he pitied me. He told me that he didn't want to disturb when he heard me snoring. Well, that's so sweet. But i think he was disturbed because of my snore.....do you agree with me? No. Yup, he is a very good husband. Whose husband? My husband. Alhamdulil...

Hello! Tomorrow is Israq Mikraj. It's a gift from Allah to our rosul Muhammad s.a.w after having the saddest year (his uncle and wife passed away) and our rosul also received the command of Allah to pray 5 times a day during that amazing journey. We must believe it. It's not impossible. Long time ago, our ancestors went to Mecca to perform hajj by ship and it took months to reach the place but now, it only takes hours, not even a day to reach Mecca. It's not impossible. Look at ourselves.From a baby to a teenager, to an adult then we become old. If we have a very long life (may be 100 years old) then we are like a baby. We need people to take care of us. We don't remember the names of people or the way from the market to our house. Everything is from Allah, our Creator. Only kun faya kun. When i watched mickey mouse cartoon, all the animals , the trees, the sky, the mountain all could speak. And it's not impossible because they are Allah's creations. So do the ...

Hello! This evening, as usual i went to my garden to check my plants and may be to trim it. i brought along my scissors. I thought the rain had already stopped but while i was trimming my bamboo plant all of a sudden, i felt like lightning struck me. i saw a very bright light. I was scared so without hesitation, i ran into my house. Then i heard a loud thunder. Haiiii....if something happened to me or easy to say, if i die , i will leave everything ...my garden, my car, my house, my land, my big family, my son and my husband. I will leave everything. I have worked so hard for my garden but i cannot bring it along with me if i die. That's life as a human. That's life as God's slave. This world is only a transit for us. How much we love this world, we will bring nothing. Only rewards that we receive from Allah can help us. If we get it but if we don't. Haiiiii.

Hello! Last Friday, i ended my extra class earlier because a few of them told me that they were exhausted. Instead of ending my class at 6 p.m., it ended at 5.40 p.m. Everybody went home except one Malay girl, the Keru girl. i saw her waiting at the bus stop alone then i remembered something. She told me a day before that her father would fetch her at 6 p.m. Her house is the furthest among my students. Alamak! So i turned back and went to school. The guards were surprised to see me again. i asked them to open the students' entrance gate and went to that girl. She was happy to see me at first but then looking anxious. Why? Hehehe i gave her a speaking test while waiting for her parents. While answering my questions, she kept looking at her watch and it's like she's praying to God begging her father to come and take her away from the misery hahaha. Later a Kancil car stopped in front of us and it was her parents'. They greeted and thanked me for accompanying their daughte...

Hehehe...my backyard garden is almost complete. i am so satisfied because i planted them myself. My husband and my son helped me to transfer the big flower pots and carried the big bags of soil to the backyard. Only bamboo plants not yet. Need to buy more soil. i told my husband, please don't sell this house if i die because i really work hard for this garden. If he misses me, he can look at the garden. He told me before that if anything happens to me , he won't stay here. He will live in Kelantan. Haiii.... that's so sad.

On the big day, i helped to clean up my late sister's house and at the same time played with my late sister's grandchild, Anis Rania. She has curly hair like her late grandmother. Last time, her father cut her hair and made it look straight. Then she had fever. So they do not dare to cut her hair anymore. My late sister's room has become her playroom. Lots of toys there. And there was a sink in it. I took her to my sister's room to wash her mouth. That's my first time entered that room after my sister passed away. I looked around that room. There was a window where my sister, kak lang always called my name whenever she saw me. I still remembered her bed was near the window. The place where she always told me her hope for her children, especially the youngest one, her son. I told Rania that was Mimi's room. All her children , nephews , nieces , including their friends called my late Kak lang, Mimi. And that girl kept repeating her name, Mimi, Mimi. I did cry and ...

Hello! It's friday today and tomorrow will be my nephew's wedding at my late sister's house. It will be two busy days for me and my sister, kak chik. We have to prepare food for the bride, the groom and the bride's family. There are a few special menu for them like ayam rendang maman, crispy fried prawns, sweet sour siakap hahahaha.

Last Saturday, i went to my colleague's / friend's son's wedding. The wedding was at Dewan...., it's the biggest hall in this district. There were thousands of people attended the wedding. So many people and lots of food, not only inside the hall but also outside. The hall was big enough but still there were few big tents outside the hall. Yup, i repeat thousands of people. All the guests received the same doorgift, a box of Beryl's chocolates. Simple but looked elegant. Actually, she has the datin title but i prefer to call her kak...... and she has no problem with it. She is very humble and generous. I never asked money from her but when she knew that i was organising a food bank programme for our Form 5 students last year, she asked my bank account number to transfer some money. Not only to my programme, other programmes also, she did the same thing. She also found a sponsor to contribute a few air-conditioners in the staffroom last year. Our staffroom's Co...