From Aku, with love

When we perform solat, We know we are only a slave, We do what Allah wants us to do. When we do bad thing, We'll feel guilty, We know Allah won't like it. If we do good thing, We'll feel proud and happy,  We know Allah will be pleased with us. Solat is not only a solat, As all Muslims do it, I also do it. Solat is for us to remind ourselves, We are only His slaves, We are only "hamba Allah",  So be good ok!

A three year old An and her mother.  An : Ibu, when are you going to hospital? Ibu : I don't go to hospital anymore. An : Why? Ibu : I'm well.  An :  Ohhhh. Ibu : Why do you want me          to go to hospital? An : I can go to Wan Su's house. Ibu : Sabar ajelah.

 We learn the word "love", To love people without conditions. We learn the word "empathy", To pity people without hurting their feeling. We learn the word "sincerity", To help people without expecting anything in return. We learn the word "forgive", To forget what people have done.  We learn the word "slave", To submit ourselves by praying to Allah.

Outing with my akak-akak today. So happy to meet all of them. Kak N and Kak Z, sometimes I met both of  them at the hospital while accompanying my mother whereas Kak M, it's our first meeting after one year. Yes, one year. I'm sorry kak ye.  Thank you for inviting me to have breakfast together. But that's not all. Visiting the nursery was an exciting moment for plant lovers like four of us. Really-really enjoyed ourselves there.  Is that the ending? Nope. Lastly, they took me home and visited my garden. Thank youuuu.  Insya-Allah , we'll meet again and hopefully, more will join us - the more , the merrier.

Today, busy in my garden. I will become a plant surgeon . I have to operate my bromeliads. I need to separate the babies from the mothers. Three bromeliads involve in the operation but I am going to have 4 babies . Two of them are twins ( from the same mother ).  After the operation is done, I will transfer each baby to a small pot. This baby bromeliad will be like a door gift for my guest ler. I received all the bromeliads from Kak M. So now the babies, I better give them away. Make the person happy like me. Thanks to Kak M. But the babies need to be repotted. Put the baby in a big pot so it will grow like "besar bagai johan" ( my favourite advert song when I was a kid).    Ok going to start my work now. Where are my gloves? 

My husband and I plan to perform umrah in 2026. Before this, our plan was 2027. Alhamdulillah. I really miss Mecca and Medina. It's been so long. Insya-Allah, my son and my mother will join us. 2026 is a long wait but that time will come. Aamiin ya Allah.

Why do I want to be a mother? He makes me smile, laugh, cry, worried. Why do I want to be a mother? I can "membawang" about my son.  Why do I want to be a mother? I was his hero but now, he is my hero. Why do I want to be a mother? He completes my life. 

Somebody told me something. She's not satisfied. I just asked her to say nothing. Those people don't know what she has done for them. But I'm very sure sooner or later, they'll know about it.   People will know all the good things that we have done after we pass away . It's always like that. Like my late father. He passed away 15 or 20 minutes before Subuh Azan. It was in 2014. Around 11 a.m. my big family was going to leave the house to go to the mosque for the janazah prayer. But when I came out,  I was shocked. So many people outside my mother's house. I didn't  know most of them. I also noticed cars being parked by the roadside. How did they know? Everything was so fast. Alhamdulillah. My late father was not "orang masjid" . He was always the imam for my mother when praying at home. He had no close friends . His children were his best friends. He's a kind-hearted person . And I think that's the reason, why many people like and remember ...

 I shared my flowers pictures with kak S. She is one of the mosque jemaah. She asked me whether my flower plants are for sale. I laughed and said , " No ". I just love seeing the plants. I feel relaxed and calm. She  loved all the flowers in my garden,  especially the roses. Thank youuu.  I am going to buy two flower plants . May be this weekend. Need to google more about plants. I am still learning. And I have very small garden visitors yesterday. While I was cooking in the kitchen, I heard something. The birds were singing. It's very loud but the melody was unfamiliar to my ears. I turned off the stove and went out. I saw two very small , hyperactive birds flying from one plant to another plant. Very small bird but made a loud sound. Smiling, I went inside and continued cooking.

This morning, I listened to " 3 Pagi Era ". Before this, I preferred listening to songs while driving, hunting for breakfast . Yalah, it's morning. Of course , we want to start our day cheerfully. But the stories or the conversation that I was listening really touched my heart. Glued my ears to stick listening to the stories until the end. And I  cried.  There're great persons out there who are willing to sacrifice for their family without expecting anything in return. Only we don't know them. But Allah knows them.  Thank you "3 Pagi Era" for the inspiring conversation. 

I love watching Korean drama series " Fight for my way" on tvs. I laughed, cried watching it. It's not a new drama and I had watched it before. But I still want to watch it. Love to see their friendship and from taking care of each other , supporting each other, they become couple. There're two couples in this drama.  They are young but they want to prove to their parents that they can be somebody. Whatever bad remarks people say about them, it's hurt but it doesn't stop them from pursuing their dreams. And they succeed.